Title: Close to nowhere

I tried to let go of you, I feel you hold on lightly
every time I  walk from you, it's getting easy each time
it's haunting the way you've got this hold on me
it's haunting the way your eyes are so dull now

I don't wanna be alone, and you don't wanna be in love
we're running in circles, arguing just because
that's all we've become, such negative devotion
we're tearing each other apart, yet to go through the emotion of giving up
and I just can't
I just can't


I wanna get close to you, get closer
I wanna feel your body bare next to mine
want to hear the way you used to laugh
see the way your eyes used to light up when I'd answer the door
all I want is for you to want to make this work
for you to want to make things better


we sit in such silence, uncomfortable and into the unknown
we don't make the effort anymore
I've never felt so alone but by your body
it's like we're both in neutral, coasting along empty land
we barely pass words to each other
and we're too tired all the time


we're going backwards, with each day that passes
my stomach full with sadness
knowing you don't want this
knowing you don't want me
knowing I was never enough


I wanna get closer to you, fill in this space here
I miss feeling your body, bare and next to mine
the way I curl up on your chest and hear your heart just beating
wish that your eyes would be bright again, wish that I'd see that smile again
the genuine emotions that have been long gone

Title: For him.

There's an ache in the air
my body sways to the breeze
it's empty in your heart
it's empty in your mind, or so it seems


I am troubled, so very wrapped up in cynical beliefs
my mind plays tricks on me, paranoia will be the death of me


I keep pushing through the darkness
pushing through the rocks to find you
I keep pushing through the darkness
pushing through the gaps to find you


there's a atmosphere between us
you could cut with a knife
it's like this big build up of tension
like we wanna kiss but all we do is fight


and I am hoping that you'll see past the madness that ex lovers caused me
my heart it sings to your melody, that voice of yours will always leave me weak


I keep pushing through the darkness
pushing through the rocks to find you
I keep pushing through the darkness
pushing through the gaps to find you


I could kiss your lips a thousand times
it'll never be enough for me, dear
I could touch your body all over
show you how beautiful you are to me


I keep dancing through the doubts
hacking at the hope of a forever with you
I have never felt such love
I promise I will be here for you

Title: Light Home

The light way home
and still I wonder if you'll uncover
the darkness in my soul, the place which I ruled the depths of it all

you left me there with no warmth, no hope now
your eyes light up to someone else's call
a beckon you'll always be
that one person you said not to worry about at all

and now I'm split in two
I've spent all my time running
trying to discover how we could make this work again and again
trust's betrayal, my old friend once more
the closest i've come to holding on
is slicing my hands on the remnants of you


you kiss my hand and your words run deep into my veins
you say it's the last time that we'll see each other again
for your mind is elsewhere, your heart singing to another voice



I wipe my cheeks, tears stain my porcelain skin
I'll always wait here for you, by the phone
hoping you will ring, hoping you will stall this darkness once more



I knew this would end,
they say nothing lasts forever
it was written in the way you didn't want to touch me anymore
it was written in the way you never looked at me too long
the way your face just stayed neutral




and now I'm split in two
sewing myself up with lies and empty promise
and I'd let you fuck me over again
you're the light that distracts my darkness

Title: Woe

Undress my mind with your seductive lies
you can never seem to find what you're looking for
you could stand in awe for hours, encouraging my flaws but I've no message for you

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, if you let me go now you won't ever get to hold her
she's not looking for commitment, yet I'm here willing to commit
you undress me with your woeful eyes and now it's all pretty clear
we're folding and melting, folding into shapes to suit another
and we all become a dust, each body is the same
and we all become a dust, each body is the same


take me by my hand, lead me toward the sofa
undress me with those woeful eyes the ones that catch me by surprise
each time you wish I was her
each time I wish I was different


I said I'd look after you, never harm you, never make you worry
but darling it's so hard when you are hypocritically doing the stuff I never wanted
you twist my arm each time we fight and make me always forgive you
I'm tired of these sleepless nights knowing you're not dreaming of me


undress my mind with your lies
lace my body in your secrets
you'll never get tired of being behind my back
each day the knife gets thinner


take me by my hand, lead me towards the promise
each time you come nearer I wish my soul was buried deep in the forest
surrounding by a breeze of fresh cold air
I could finally breathe
I could finally be free again

Title: You

My days are broken up by the dreams of girls I'll never be

and when my nights are cold I try to think of you laying with me

the coldness of my sheets have left me struggling to breathe

but I'm still holding on, holding onto you

It's been days since I've woke up in a panicked mess

you come around and act like you've never been away

but all I know is the minutes I'm waiting for you to call

am I too much for you? why would you even bother at all?

why are the hours so long whilst I wait to see you

to be back in your arms, my home

they're all I know

the days apart are taking their toll on our love

the distance it makes me wonder

when will I ever

be enough, be enough

when will I ever

get to feel your touch

every night 

will that day ever come for us?

why do I bother

waiting around?

when seem so fucking blasé about what we've found here

and is this just you? a cold wall to talk to

is there any warmth under there that I can drain out

is it just me?

am I too plain?

is it just me?

am I just gonna be a part-time thing

I'm getting so tired of having to wait to come home

come home, come home to you

the days apart are taking their toll on our love

the distance it makes me wonder

when will I ever

be enough, be enough

when will I ever

get to feel your touch

every night 

will that day ever come for us?

last night I dreamt that we were laughing in your house

and the only time we had to say goodbye was short-term

am I the only one who has these dreams

am I the only one who feels this way about us?

the days apart are taking their toll on our love

the distance it makes me wonder

when will I ever

be enough, be enough

when will I ever

get to feel your touch

every night 

will that day ever come for us?

maybe it's me

maybe it's because I'm not her

maybe it's me

maybe it's because I give too much

maybe it's you

you don't know how you feel about us

maybe it's time, it's time to give it up

Title: Unspoken Truths

Every woman has had a bad man in their life
and mine was treating me wrong
so foolish and unkind
to deserve the marks of your big man hands
all over my thighs


bruised, black and blue
I'm sure you can relate
and when I'm alone now
the dark makes me irate


I remember the feeling of love
the warmth from your laugh
the way that you used to hold my hand
as we walked through the park


bruised, black and blue
my body your canvas to break
I'm all alone now
and it is better this way


setting free,
running as fast as my feet will carry me
setting free
running as fast as my feet will carry me

Title: Heated

I lay on the table
undressed but still clothes in all my fear
you're taking your time boy
you're making me want you more each minute


I can't quite understand you yet
but this lust is all I'm needing
I can't quite understand you yet
but this lust is so deceiving


I'm on all fours
your hands they grab every part of me
and this isn't love
but what does it matter
you're killing me


I can't quite understand you yet
but you're on my mind, all the time
I can't quite understand you yet
but you're on my mind and I'm ready to let it go
I'm ready to let it go


my muscles start to relax
the ice cubes melting
the heat of this moment is burning me
but I kind of like it, pain and pleasure

I'm on your bed
the sheets are slowly drifting
my body writhes
and yet you still haven't been in me


I can't quite understand you yet
but you're on my mind
even when I'm with someone else
I feel your grind