Title: Anyway

You say it anyway
I can't believe it's done
your words cut through me darling and still you are the one

you say it anyway
I can't hold back much more
yet still you are the only one who leaves my body sore
I'm wrapped up in the hope that we will last
I've spent several months in nightmares so we could forget the past
you still wonder,  how I will ever forgive
but I promise you that I have tried and still I want to give you all of my love


our naked bodies clash
we've bruised all that our bones have become
I'm dripping for you now
my tears inconsolable


you say it anyway
and still you are the one
I don't know why we argue
when we're raw and seeing the sun
the only string of light that dangles like a treat towards a dog
I'm down on all fours ready to give you all I have
and still you wonder


my heart in-between your very teeth
you're biting down harder with each attempt I make to breathe
and this pain curses my whole body
little did I know you're still fooling around

our naked bodies clash
we've bruised all that our bones have become
I'm dripping for you now
my tears inconsolable


you say it anyway
I know that you're a liar
I'm always being played for being the one who never stops the fire from burning out


our naked bodies clash, for the last time
I've bruised and cut my skin for your pleasure
I'm dripping for you now
soaked in my own sadness


I can't believe my luck
it's always the other who says I fuck it up
but these words are left unspoken
with every breath I am hurting
these words are lingering on your tongue

Title: 4am Insomniac Thoughts

As you rest, as you lay there dreaming
I'm battling thoughts about you leaving
I lay awake wondering when I'll ever be a priority
as you rest, I hope that you won't forget me
when I finally find the courage


you're elusive, and I'm awake
when will you set me free?
when will you love completely?

your hands could be responsible for feelings I desire to know,
the complications of love leave stains upon my porcelain body
and are you leaving?
because it feels as though I've already lost you
are you leaving?


I settle in rough tides, you crave a calm life
I am sailing, drifting in clearer waters than ever before
I hope that my body will one day sink like lead
my body slowly unravelling to my hearts shore

you're elusive, and I'm awake
when will you set me free?
when will you love completely?


I still dream of us
I sleep with you stroking my hair from within my pillow
the pillow that saves all these precious minutes where I'm with you
I dream of sleep, I crave rest, to be rested with you
I dream of us, finally somewhere


I open my eyes and I'm still not next to you,
I guess that destiny lies in the hands that will eventually set me free
your hands linger, they have a stench of cold effort


you're elusive, and I'm awake
when will you set me free?
when will you love completely?

Title: Attempt

Wrapped up, in each of your lies
the way you just casually tell them to me
and you say I'm meant to trust you?

you give me the sweet talk
with words like honey
drizzled in softly spoken heart ache
and I can't help but wonder if it's really you that's saying it
because I've heard it too many times from too many lovers lips

I know that I've got a lot I need to learn
I know that it's me that needs to change
but you must admit, my dearest love
that you don't really help me at all
I'm always unsure and doubtful of the way you feel
of the way you keep everything a secret
of the way you never tell me what's going on


Chorus: I'm ever so ambitious
to think that you really do care
I'm ever so suspicious
I create situations in my mind that I know will occur
and I can't believe that you are still here
how long will it take before you leave?
I'm ever so delirious
to think that it's me you want
to think that it's me you love


I'm attempting to better myself
and I hope you appreciate me for doing so
and I'm improving every flaw that is sewn together with hopeful thoughts
I hope you never hurt me like the first
I hope you never let me down
I don't think you realise how much I lost and sacrificed for the last man



the way you talk when we're together
but the words you say when we're apart
they're intertwined with confusion
and it makes me question each thing that's left your lips
I don't think you realise how much you mess me around


Chorus


I want to try and make it better
but I don't think you'll love me much longer
I want to try and be less bitter
but I don't think you'll stick around


Chorus


End: I'll try my upmost best
to always be in your good books
because then maybe you'll see a future with less grey clouds
and maybe I'll trust the way you speak and trust the love you took

Title: Hot sex

Take me to the place I know best
where most tired eyes and aching bodies go to rest
I'll wrap myself around you, my legs tight around your waist
I'll take my time, I'll take you all in
you don't know how much I want you
how much I've wanted this

let's slow things down,
I want to taste you
you'll be begging me to stop
I'll be begging you to come
to just let go


just when I think you've had enough of my teasing
of my big eyed stare as I start on your tip
you pull me closer
you tell me what you want


Chorus: I want you,
I want you
I want all of you, every inch
inside and around me
holding me close and feeling my pounding heart
feeling my grinding body
I want you to notice how hard I'm going
how passionate it is


let's slow things down,
I want to feel you
I want to kiss down your body
taste the tension and excitement through your skin

Chorus


End: and after drips of my success run down my face
I showed you how much I want you
you filled me up, filled me up with warmth and admiration
and only minutes later, I want to do it all over again

Title: Lately

I feel your skin, electric
I feel you all over me
inside every inch
our lip harshly intertwine
please tell me how I better myself
please tell me where I go
I keep giving it all, just to love myself
I keep giving it all just to love you

no one before you
you, the rising sun in my aching body
I'm so happy that I get to hold you
and I keep losing and giving it all
just to let you cut a little deeper
let you see who I really am

It's always been there
chemistry galloping in the background
a white noise so silent
we chose to ignore
and I never saw this coming
I never thought I'd love again
and I keep giving and losing it all
just to let you come within
let you come a bit closer

I see the flawed parts of you
far from anything I've held with heavy hands
I'm sewn together with doubts and kind intentions
but, you and I know, how much love I have to give
and how often I take pride in at all

I'm giving it all
body and soul
to love you
to love you
to love you

Title: Cold Pores

I want to give you what you deserve
but why are you choosing me?
I'm not the only choice
so thank you for trying to make me your number one


I want to give you all you deserve
but there's just one thing
why are you choosing me?
I'm not the only one


I want to keep you warm on a cold night
and we've talked about our highs and lows
and what goes up must come down, as you know
I've been in a better place


Chorus: I must admit that all the time I gave you
I can no longer wait for approval
I want you, to really want me too
and I want you to really need me
because I'm forever feeling that it's all one sided
that all my love never sinks into your cold pores


don't trade me
I never thought that I would have the nerve to
tell you all that's within my head
don't trade me in for her
don't trade me in for anyone


Chorus


End: I can't wait to have you back with me
but I can see that you're starting to wish you'll see the back of me
and I don't want to lose this
I don't want to make this fall apart
I just really need you to need me, to want me
as much as I ever could for you

Title: Luck

I watch your body give in,
give in to the exhaustion of your long dull days
I realise how much my heart belongs to you
you have my full love, always


I honestly feel like I've been here, by your side and in your arms
for much longer than I've been truly alive, truly breathing,
truly taking in every little thing that you have to offer
it feels like I've known you all my life
the natural abilities of our bodies and minds
the way we got so comfortable



Chorus: I've been waiting for a being like you
someone so pure and patient
someone so understanding
I've been loving so deeply
the wrong heart might I add
but you know now
it's you I always wanted
it was you all along
the proof is in the way we are
the way we are


to be completely honest
to be completely content
all I need is you
x2

Chorus


End: all my love, always so pure and demanding
I'll be here waiting for you
until you let my love go
until you give in to the impatience

Title: I couldn't want you anyway

Hard times are coming,
and all my friends are nowhere to be seen
I'm in the dark again, in the dark alone
all my good friends don't understand
my heart and eyes keep hoping that the darkness will be gone


my thoughts are full and plenty
of misery and consistent battles
it's no wonder I'm thinking really deeply
when you're better off
when you're better off
when you're better off

Chorus: All I do is drag you down,
you didn't want me anyway
don't even keep reminding me that this is a big mistake
please be aware I've been trying so hard not to break
now let me go, now let me go
there's nothing left for you here anymore
you didn't want me anyway


don't keep this fire burning,
when the fuel is long gone
we'll wait until the world stops spinning
until you realise that things are wrong
don't keep this fire burning
when the fuel is long gone
we'll wait until the world stops spinning
until I'm gone

I couldn't watch you anyway
your profile pulls my heart closer, until it's almost ripped out of my skin
I'll keep my hope in my darkness
and let me my mind get worse
I know that my broken heart has let this love rest

Chorus

And I couldn't have you anyway
not to myself, not ever
I watched this love fall apart
just like my first
and I couldn't have you any other way
now that I've lost my mind
now that I don't know what I am anymore

Title: A.Joice

You waited so patiently
if you want me still
I could be your home by now
our feelings develop slow
and when you think you're home, safe and warm, at ease
I hope I'm worth the wait
you deserve the best kind of love, the kind that touches your soul
love that takes your breath away
I think I could give you that much

whenever you need me, I'll remain
and I'll be out of sight when you no longer do
I come alive whenever you're near
the way you make me feel like I never was alone
I'll give you love
I'd do anything

anywhere you are
let me comfort you
your eyes they keep me away from darkness and days of abuse
I'll be your night light, overdue
you'll be my night guide, comforting
I'll take you away
so please don't stay alone tonight

when the days feel long
darling, I'd take that dark walk home
I'd bring you back to me
I'd bring you back to me
I never thought I'd love again
but with you I do so easily
so please don't be alone tonight

anywhere you are
let me comfort you
your eyes they keep me away from darkness and days of abuse
I'll be your night light, overdue
you'll be my night guide, comforting
I'll take you away
so please don't stay alone tonight

whenever you want me
wherever you need me
however you love me
I'll be your company
I'll be whatever you need me to be
I'd do anything to take the doubts away
I bathe in the light you create

hold me, I'll hold you tighter
the way you feel alone
the way you hold it all inside
building up insecurity
I'll wait until you're ready
until you feel enough
you're my fuzzy feeling
you're more than enough

Title: As long as we're together

I'd like to make plans with you
easier said than done, I'm aware
what if I said I've let go?
what if I said I care for you?

you grind yourself down, with insecurity
and I would do anything for you
anything to make you feel better

a little worry, a little strain
I'd lose it all, for you to call my name
and as long as we're together
I will continue to admire you
I will continue to be patient
and I'd lose it all
as long as we're together

I try not to protect myself
paranoid by the past
I hope that the scars will fade
if I could I would go back
I would choose you

a little worry, a little strain
I'd lose it all, for you to call my name
and as long as we're together
I will continue to admire you
I will continue to be patient
and I'd lose it all
as long as we're together

I care, I will always care
I love, I will always love
too much, too often, too foolishly
and I'll fall, deeper into you
as long as we're together

Title: Seperate

I could sense the doubts within your voice
as your hesitant tongue played with your words
and as you held me close, for the last time
I knew that this would never last
I knew that we were always undone

I never thought that I would have to miss you
I never thought you'd give me up, let me go
but we're apart now
another lesson learned
I hope you find what you're looking for
everything I could have been
everything I was and more

you promised me a life, a future
that was everything to me
but still, you break me once more
you betrayed me once again


I waited for you to change,
I was told you can't change people
I was patient, gave you chances that no one else would give
but you never made it right, you never made up for it
but yet I always hoped we'd be safe

yet, still, I'm waiting
yet, still, I'm waiting
on you again, you again

you promised me a life, a future
that was everything to me
but still, you break me once more
you betrayed me once again

stranger things are coming my way,
apart, alone, but I live in better days
less suffocated, less controlling, a better way to remain
I never thought you'd leave me
I never though I'd have to miss you
and one day I hope you see all I gave to you
and one day I hope you call

Title: Swept

I can feel the hurdles in your voice
as you drag me gently towards your everlasting love
I can feel each trigger in me, and right now it might not be much
but you're my fuzzy feeling

I still get nervous, each time we meet
I embrace all feelings that I never knew existed
and yet we're so comfortable
we're so intertwined

I'll hold you with open arms
I'll kiss you with tender lips
make you feel warm and loved
I'll make you feel something you never did

I sway in the tide you give,
your aura dragging me from shore to shore
and I'm drifting in bliss
you glow so bright whenever I'm near
and I glow so bright when I think of you

I'll hold you with open arms
I'll kiss you with tender lips
make you feel warm and loved
I'll make you feel something you never did


and are you coming back soon?
please don't say you're sleeping alone tonight
I lay awake with the gentle truth, bare on my skin
it's always been you, darling
it's never to late to begin

Title: Betrayed

I breathe you in, you spit me out
I touch your skin, rough with betrayal
you stroke my hand, I feel numb
is this really all we've become?
just two bodies, nothing more to hold

I gave you my all
you gave me nothing but doubts
you made me something to you
but it was never enough
I wish I knew why you broke me so, why you hurt me so

I expected more than this
all we have is elusive
I wanted all of this, at the beginning you promised more than this
yet all I gained from you was disappointment

I have learnt to be less loyal, less kind
my mending scars bind doubt and fear together
you have taught me all that first love should never teach
but here I am, moving on and letting go of the tears beneath my burdened sheets

and sweetheart, what exactly did I do
I deserved your love, your time, your affection
and all I got for closure was nothing more than the love you gave to me


this heartbreak of mine
I would have never have been enough
I gave you everything I had
and what future did I imagine with you?
there was no such thing

Title: Stay the same

I rest my case
you couldn't love me anyway
I rest my case
what was I thinking
you couldn't love me anyway

I rest my case
you're forever cold and I'm always to blame
I rest my case
I'll never mean anything to you
and that's a shame

I trace the night light
my position learned through lessons carried on my fingertips
and I carry myself like a gentle melody
but as soon as you're by my side I'm who I never want to be
it's harder, bitter, colder
it's the strangest, you're moving
but your heart remains stationary

Chorus: you'll stay the same
I'd always change for you
bettering myself
to make this last to make this last another day
you'll stay the same
why do you always play this game?
I'm always changing for you
fixing faults I never committed

I want this to end
the hanging of words
left out to dry whilst I weep
and I'm lost, I'm lost and lonely
better off alone, at least then I'm slightly happy
laughing and joking
but we're breaking
and you'll still stay the same
careless and none the wiser

chorus

ending: you'll never change for me
that proves anything and everything that I ever need to know
why do you always play this game?
why do you always stay the same

Title: Nothing or all.

I despite the way I want you back
each time we break away
I hate the way you talk to girls
and how I always get in the way

I can't understand how much I love and care for you
if were any more it'd kill, most certainly
suppressed by this, us
it's more than anything I thought we were
full of anger, full of anger
I don't want to lose you darling
but when you keep testing me and pushing me away
what more can I give to you? to make you stay

Chorus: If you don't like how much I care
if you don't want to hear a word from my everlasting love, everlasting love
is it too much to ask, for just three words from your touch
is it too much to ask for simplicity?
if you don't like how much I care for you
if you don't want me to be here
just say it
if you don't like how much I care for you
if you hate it, if you hate me too
just say it, just say it

I give so much to you and get nothing back
I have high expectations and standards that you always lack to meet
all I ask of you is to be there for me
like I am, like how I always drop everything to be with you

I can't stand the way I don't hate you, not even a tiny amount
I can't stand that I know I'm better off alone but I don't want to leave one bit
ooh, all I'm asking for
is everything that you just can't think about
you just want what you want

chorus

ending: I can't help how much I care for you
slowly I'll fade away
this is the last chance, my final call
beckoner, I beg you to love me
beckoner, I beg you to want me
beckoner, I need you to need me
give me nothing or give me all

Title: when/enough

There's so much to say to you
where do I begin?
you promised me so many delicate words, before we picked up our pace
and it seems so far away, the empty promises you threw away
and there are words within words
that keep my mind rotating, so many thoughts that begin fires in my mind
and my insecurities keep on sinking deeper
I swallow my tongue and choke on what I want to tell you

I could never be happy
but I hope you are
you seem to be doing so well
you seem to be managing
and I'm still fading away
slowly edging out of this cold companionship

Chorus: when will it be enough?
when will I be enough?
I can't wait around for you to accept me
I can't watch you talk to her like that
you don't think, you just do
you never think, you just do

if it's not all serious
secrecy, hidden lust
why do you always take it further
why are you always pulling the trigger

chorus

ending: and if it's meant for us
we'll be together another time
and if I really mean that much
we'll be together for the better times

Title: Fuel the fire

why did you have to fuel the fire?
you were so wrapped up in your guilt free desires
and everything you said to her
you'd never think of me

why do you have to fuel the fire?
you're ever so caught up in desires
I've had enough, it's too much to keep this up
and so I've left it all to you
the last chance, never enough

Chorus: when will you fall in love with me?
when will I get the chance to understand you?
your lack of thinking
your lack of common sense
you do what you want to please you
and I'll always try hard to keep you
but whenever I'm close you steer away
why do you have to fuel the fire?
you're so wrapped up in your secrecy and hidden desires

I'm well inclined to let this go
I watch you grow
I become weak
and baby, you know I could give you up
but not so easily

second thoughts from the past
I've never been there before
I'm never empty from doubts
you'll never try, it's too much effort

chorus

ending: and you know, I could give you up
so why do you have to fuel the fire?
why are you so wrapped up in secrecy and toxic desires?

Title: Priorities

There's no light left in the dark
now I know where I'm laying at night
I can't deal with lonely times
but you seem to manage fine

I don't understand
why don't you wanna hold my hand?
as tightly as you used to
as tightly as we used to be

what have I done?
why are you acting this way?
all I, all I ever wanted was you
and I can't keep this inside
it's wearing me down and out
and soon we'll be through
the evidence is true

Chorus: Pull me closer now
for this will be the last time
you'll ever feel something so strong and real
we used to so real, together
you and I would fight, fight for what we had
with fists of purity and I can't hold back anymore

you don't seem to care
when I cry at night
you turn your body over
out of my sight

I'd drop anything for you
I'd stop in my tracks just to see you over
just to calm you down

chorus

and with me,
I'm not the first priority
you're always letting me down
and I hope I'm not the only one
I hope I'm not the lonely one, right now

chorus

ending: and I can't live without you
I need you warmth and love in my life
need that touch to get me through this so I can feel alright

Title: You, you

This guilt, guilt, guilt
is eating me up, up, up
ever so slowly
catching me in my weakness
basking in glory
this guilt, guilt, guilt
is eating me up, up, up
ever so willingly
catching me and basking in glory

I can't keep up with all this doubt
inside my head right now
self inflicted love, gone
the less we talk, the less I crave
but I can't make you take the blame
when all I can do is love love you so deeply

Chorus: And it takes me
far away, and soaks my bones in what we have
and it takes me, ever so gently
with warmer hands and the coldest of hearts
and I never want to part from you, no
I don't want  to know how I'd do, without you
without you by my side

I find it hard how you seem to cope without me
and get by just fine, with a lonely night
your scent lingers on my pillows and it's the best sleeping aid
I've had so far, you're the best so far

and it eats me whole
grinds me down
can you feel it?
can you hear me now?
x2

chorus

ending: and I can't not kiss your skin
I can't tell you it's going to be alright
you're the demon of my nights
and I want to keep you forever
but how do I know whether you'll leave my sight?
do you want to, darling?

Title: Less I give

Your love ain't fair
you just don't care
your love ain't fair
you just don't care

and I'm waiting for you
what do you do, what are you doing?
are you too busy to love me?
and you wanting something more?
are you too busy to want me?
are you all I've been waiting for?

Chorus: doubts, give them up for me
I'm weighed by the world of worries
you carry, you carry me
you carry, you carry me


gently we kiss
harshly we hold, one another
I give it to you, I give it all up
so we can love each other

and I would do
anything to have you
right where I want you
want you back, for good

chorus

the less I give
the more you demand
and I can't keep up with your needy emotions
and I can't deliver what you're always hoping for

I pull you in
you pull away
and the shame sinks in my bones
and I pull you in
you pull me away
and the shame sinks in my bones

chorus

ending: you carry me
with words of hope
and I'm ending things slowly
one worry at a time, darling