Title: Lose if you have to.

We are dead, we are done
and lose if you want to
lose if you have to
do it, alone, without your mind for company

it's a war of your heart but your mind's too heavy
anchors your soul until you feel ready
and so some may say, we've been in winter, cold, for far too long
don't give up on me yet, I'll give you what I feel you deserve

Chorus: your eyes are always sore,
hang lightly from your face
when we've won, I'll wait for your arms
wide open I wait to hold you
and lose if you have to
lose if you want to
but I'll still be here
waiting for so long

promise me the words you say aren't for any other ears but mine
I'll be putting you through your paces
you'll understand where I went so wrong
and don't think I'll survive without your presence

I sip bottle by bottle to forget the way I treated you
I will love you better, through the patience and time you can't find
grant me better love, a higher touch, lose me behind your eyes

chorus

ending: lose if you have to
lose if you want to
if you have to
if you have to
be mine

Title: Lust tokes. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

My eyes gazed upon yours,
but you knew I was someplace else, anywhere else
I knew you were empty and alone
yet I still found myself close to you
I'm never leaving your side, home is wherever you are

a bitter word clings to my lungs
it's the words I can't say but I wish I could have done
my breath is bitter now, and it's cold outside
I inhale your touch,  I know you're too sober
for whatever we are

Chorus: Drag me in, choke on my veins that allows fools to rush in
a heavy heart is better than one that can't be felt at all
reality is a figment of my imagination
I push you aside along with my wit
I'll never let you forget, forget

sweetheart, you linger
on my skin, cheap perfume you remembered
how it felt to be, how it felt to be
in love again

daydreamer, serious I'll never be
hopelessly surrendering to your every word
a kiss stays on the corners of my lips for you
I promise you

chorus

ending: pull me close, tear me up, fix me up again
I'm afraid this lust has been happening
for too long, I've let you forget again

Title: Never enough. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

Through thick and thin,
the state I'm in
I vary for your mind, I vary for your eyes
a shapeshifter in disguise
I'm the bluest of skies
yet your eyes never notice
you're oblivious to this

I'd stay up for days for you
I'd dig myself a grave, for you
bury me beneath butterflies of attempts and failures
you know I'd never rest until you increased your knowledge of me

Chorus: And do you even know me at all
I think we're strangers bound to fall, effortlessly
you're unaware of everything I could be
you see the flaws and never what I could achieve
effortless, I effortlessly am the beckon to your never-ending call

this is the failure of you and I,
the words we never spoke but the actions we tried
we did it all for us, we did it all for us
never enough, for you
never good, for you
yet in small doses you manage

Chorus

Ending: It's all I'll never become,
all I'll ever be is a tangled fool
a challenge for us all
and all you'll ever see
is what your mind easily deceives

Title: Make you want. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

I can't make you love me,
even if I really want you to
I refuse to let you want me
I'm always reassured this is something that you'll never do

and in the dustiest corners
I lay my mind to rest with you
and when the sun surrenders
I'm dissolved gently inside of you

Chorus: My heart rate rapid with you
my blood stream sings symphonies every time I wait for your arrival
and I sink, sink, sink down to the darkest depths of you
and my body it sways as I lay down, I lay like snow for you
gentle, gentle, gentle
I've never been this way

I promised a thousand kisses
we've all the time in the world
but for my eyes I see only you
and the days together dissolve to bitter shades of blue
and I'm gentle, gentle, gentle
all for you

will you ever know?
will you ever be aware?
oh the things I do, I long to depart from my despair
will you ever know?
will you ever be aware?
all the actions I take are mistakes I make

Chorus

Ending: I can't make you want me,
I can't even try,
I can't make you love me,
I can't even try

Title: Alone again. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

She can do no wrong, by you
she plays hide and seek in your mind
straying far from what I left behind
she can do no wrong, by you
one day you'll discover she'll make you blue

your absence to her, is most desirable
she'll push you away but for now she provides a higher goal
if only, if only it was enough
to be aware of the power from your touch
I weight heavy in my heart
it lays like ocean floors on my arms for you
but I'm bitter, because I'm not good to you

Chorus: Hide, I hide away
I fear emerging to safer places
hide, I hide away
oh I wish this was the way the story ended
oh to be enough, oh for my kisses to be enough for your lips
the taste of your words hang on my lungs like butterflies
and I'm alone, alone, alone again

Oh I wait for you, like I never did
carry me like a vessel on your lips
sink ships with your tongue
I'm afraid of shadows when the night is done

the sun it wakes my eyes from their caves
they were buried all night under words you'll never say
I hold you closely right next to my pillow
you're trapped inside my daydreams but you're yet to know

Chorus

Ending: Oh and I wake up all alone again

Title: Another Chance. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

Give me another chance to show you
I'm fully aware I don't mean much to anyone
leave this world behind, it's never enough
everlasting hunger for your kiss
satisfaction from beds of emptiness
you leave me hanging onto the creases in your pillows

remaining in bed with your silky neck
closer to me, the way it should never be
and this heartbeat sings, yet to rest in this vessel of mine
I long for your heaviness to my heart


chorus: you swiftly become the source that I crave
you can give me what I need, what I want
we develop into words we can't spell and long to say
it's the flicker of your eyes when you gain patience
you say those long lost words, your body speaking poems
I'll never fully digest all that we are

I lack the knowledge of what it is you truly want
what can I, the easily attached fool, save you from?
we breathe in each other, take it all in
we move at night like scars on wishing wells
combined as one, beautifully broken

the expiration of us slowly drifts in
we divide, motionless, letting the tide drag us in

chorus

ending: wrapped up in your mind, most undesirable
this is the sunrise, sunset, corners of your smile you've never shown
my foolish heart, churns from the start
the presence of your departure
nothing quite like I thought I'd know

Title: Good when gone. Written By:Eleanor Diplock.

The curious prolonged case of waiting
the desire for someone different
expectations of mine are missing
my hope for success weighs more than what you'll ever be thinking
and in the shadows of my vessel, you're waiting, but for what?

and with the slip of my hand I'm no longer the fool,
burnt, buried and broken from the words within you
this time I know for certain, it's not me you're after, is it?
it's the idea of someone being with you

Chorus: use me up, rinse me out until I'm dry, until I'm gone
I'm good when you're gone, even better with you around
there'll be times when I don't want to take the blame
you lack affection, I'd leave if I could
trust me I'd have gone forever ago
use me up, rinse me out until I'm dry, until I'm gone

when I leave my body for the sky, I bet the wait won't be worth it
countless encounters fuelled by drunken disasters
but this time I can make my mind up
it's the idea of being with you

chorus

ending: I float like ships on water, for you to notice
I wander like stars in the sky, I wonder if you see them too
and when I leave, it will be worth it
I'm good when you're gone, even better with you around