Title: Chances

I take back every breath I spent on you
I sold my heart to a man who I once knew
and I'm no longer hungry for you
darling, I made it through another night all alone
I've never been prepared for misery
I'm in such an awful state

yet it's so nice to see you
you want to feel the pound of your heart as we brush hands
and to me you are something
but nothing important
and to you I am everything
but something forgotten

Chorus: give me the chance
even if for just one night
to be yours to be held to feel alright
and give me the chance to be somebody
give me the chance to feel anything more than numb
kisses laced in toxic emotions
darling, you kiss me so softly
you kiss me so tightly
you give me another chance
to be another girl

we move so fast
drift on through one another
phases of encounters overlooked
but all I want to know is
can I be anything, can I feel what warmth of a body can bring

I perceive you and I as a figment of my imagination
layered in golden heat as we come close
this is what makes us envelop
we intertwine in all the thoughts we take as an overdose

chorus

ending: and in my daydreams, you are made of gold
I pause your volume in conversation and you're mine to hold
so give me the chance, another time, I promise the last
to be something, to feel anything
and I'll promise to kiss you so tightly, darling
so give me the chance

Title: Closer, already

I don't know why you come here
every time I am reminded
of what it was we used to be like
and all of the good things that we used to know
I know that you're not expected to go on second guessing
but with me darling, doubts are for the best

I don't want you coming here
any closer than you think you already are
I can't have you staying here
every time I see your eyes
I want to wonder your mind
discover your intentions
and I know you don't want to be pretending
but with me darling, doubts are the for the best


Chorus: and when you're with me, sweetheart
I don't believe that there is anybody else
you provide to me constant confusion
a jigsaw of emotions
tightly tied at my feet
buried softly in my heart
and it's what makes me strong
unlike the undesired passion that makes you weak

and I don't want you coming here anymore, darling
any closer than you want to be
I can't have you staying here
I am nothing, nobody important
I am full of false hope
I expect but you'll always accept
whatever is offered, second best

chorus

ending: and I'm in a condition
over used and under appreciated
and if you come any closer, darling
I'll leave you with nothing other than disappointment

Title: Burn out

I roll my eyes at the art of conversation
I've yet to meet you and I've already fallen for your emotions
I don't know, I don't know why
if I knew the answers, darling
I'd be long gone, long gone

wrap me up in toxicity from your breath
you're the only one who's ever wanted me
I could think of a thousand reasons why
I don't believe in you, you and I

Chorus: light me up watch me burn out
this pain will be everlasting
until we depart, I've yet to know why
and I'm grasping onto your frail bones
how do you mean, you're not coming back?
I've called you countless times
I've never been the one who's caught your attention

I'm waiting for the day
until I know you inside out
like the back of my hands
maps covered in scars
I hang myself heavy for your eyes
and I'd hope that you'd say that you love me
I'd hope that I meant anything
but it turns out just as I thought
we remain, we remain
and you break a solid piece of my heart

chorus

ending: and hold on
what did you say that for?
you know I'm too fragile for any words of false beauty
and what do you take me for?
your constant disappointment
I'm afraid your right, darling

Title: Fooled, once more

Second best, never any priority
and I'll close my eyes for years until I feel your presence
my heavy vein flow beats rapid whenever your hand is mine to hold
I've fooled myself all over again
I've fooled myself once again

I fall in, I fall out, I fall with
I fall in, I fall out, I fall with you
you're unaware, oblivious, elusive, awake yet unaware
my aching heart pours with every word I say
and you'll take me home, tonight
I'm sure you know that
you say you'll take your time
but a promise is broken once more

Chorus: and don't you worry
I'll remain here forever waiting for you
blossoming like a wilting lover
fading through shades of blue
when will you realise that it's here that I lie
my body restless it attaches to you

it's somewhat quizzical
how you're here when I don't need you
but when I want you you're out of sight
it's in my mind I wander through past interactions
hoping it'll never be us

chorus

ending: I'll stay here with you
second best, never any priority
I've fooled myself once again
you remain elusive and awake
I remain restless and still

Title: Only ever

Never what you wanted
my foolish heart filled with wine
I could be yours, but I'm not even close to such intentions
and all of me is ready
and all I've got is everything I can give to you

and here we go again
I've wasted my fractured breath on delicate disasters
and it's for you, another man to come home to
another day, in another way, I'll be what you want
and you'll love me too

Chorus: You're only ever a heartbeat away
you're tied down to my mind, to what my blood flow conveys
and I lust for you, I crave you
and I've really fooled myself this time, sweetheart
I've pushed myself right into all that is not mine
my foolish heart marinated in toxic sorrow
and I'll drown, I'll drown, until it's you that I find

do I even mean something to you?
if not a lot, a little?
coherent memories weighed down like treasure in my mind
and it's home I've found

I'm moving slow
heart rate decreasing now
and these hands they quiver
my love grows old
but I will wait for you, darling
I seem to wait for everything that has gone

chorus

ending: and here we go again
another day, wasted in sighs of heavy heartbeats
I'll wrap myself up in moments of reminiscence
anything to be a little bit closer to you
a fool to have drifted

Title: Darling

I just want you closer
I just want you for tonight
sail away with me, darling
for the mind shreds my thoughts every day
I just need to know that I'm something to you
make me aware of what it is you want
what your intentions are, if any
and I want to hold you, now

and you're howling at my face
speaking words of betrayal
and all the times that I thought I'd tasted love
you came close to what I thought I'd never have
and darling, if you're here with me now
I've never needed you so bad

Chorus: you're crawling around my head
and I need you more than ever tonight
my heart remains in between your teeth
gripped tightly by exhausted lungs
your heavy heart weighs my youthful mind down
and you're so fucked up, darling
the lack of explanations leaves me filled with fear
but, I've never needed you so badly
how did it come to this?

the remains of you and I
lightly salted in heavy breaths
the remains of you and I
soaked and marinated in false love
and this is what the result of departure is
my heart remains in between your teeth

chorus

ending: what will be, will be
this is the remains of you and I
and oh fuck, darling
I needed you so badly tonight

Title: Bitter Blood

It's the power of not knowing
where this could possibly lead us to
we're both full of doubt
so sick and tired of leaving without a tender kiss
and I see you changing from day to day
you're getting older, so much colder
somewhat embarrassed by words I say

and I'm far away from you
I can't force you to love me
I can't pretend those long lost words speak softly from your lips
I'll try my hardest to surrender to you
I'll try my hardest to be better to you
but darling, what I am, is no more than a self-destructing wreck

Chorus: I sink sharply
to be hollow for you
and I turn off the lights
I turn down the best of us
I turn down the voices in my head
it's the consistent distraction
so lay down with me
I'll speak no false words
hold me tight, don't mislead me

If you don't
I can't make you
I can't make your heart feel like I'm home
and it's all up to you
hear me in the dark, sweetheart
my final words to you
I lay my heart down
and I sink so sharply
to be a sweeter taste for you

chorus

ending: bitter blood seeps through my pores
and I'm no longer where you want me to be
and I can't make you want me
I can't force you to feel anything other than reality
and lay down with me
I'll speak my last words
full of hope and faith
that after you, there'll be a perfect world