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Wednesday 30 July 2014

Title: Eyes off

You offer light
but it's so dark inside my mind, in many ways
when I'm alone with you I feel so alive
when you leave my side I ache, for you to come on home to me
but I can't make you mine

I've said it before
and I'll say it all over again
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't believe how lucky I am
I can't take my eyes off you
I soak in the light you give
and you give me light every single day

you fix me, you started slowly and then all at once
I'm addicted to feeling alive
dear god I hope this lasts
I want to make you feel whole again
I want to make you feel love again
you're my recovery
a different kind of serotonin

but I always knew, I always knew I'd love you
I can feel it coming so clearly
I can feel you already there
you're running around my head
and I can't keep up
you're running around my head

you fix me, you started slowly and then all at once
I'm addicted to feeling alive
dear god I hope this lasts
I want to make you feel whole again
I want to make you feel love again
you're my recovery
a different kind of serotonin


just a feeling
just a feeling
I won't give up on you
I promise I always knew
I always knew
it was you

Title: A.Joice

You waited so patiently
if you want me still
I could be your home by now
our feelings develop slow
and when you think you're home, safe and warm, at ease
I hope I'm worth the wait
you deserve the best kind of love, the kind that touches your soul
love that takes your breath away
I think I could give you that much

whenever you need me, I'll remain
and I'll be out of sight when you no longer do
I come alive whenever you're near
the way you make me feel like I never was alone
I'll give you love
I'd do anything

anywhere you are
let me comfort you
your eyes they keep me away from darkness and days of abuse
I'll be your night light, overdue
you'll be my night guide, comforting
I'll take you away
so please don't stay alone tonight

when the days feel long
darling, I'd take that dark walk home
I'd bring you back to me
I'd bring you back to me
I never thought I'd love again
but with you I do so easily
so please don't be alone tonight

anywhere you are
let me comfort you
your eyes they keep me away from darkness and days of abuse
I'll be your night light, overdue
you'll be my night guide, comforting
I'll take you away
so please don't stay alone tonight

whenever you want me
wherever you need me
however you love me
I'll be your company
I'll be whatever you need me to be
I'd do anything to take the doubts away
I bathe in the light you create

hold me, I'll hold you tighter
the way you feel alone
the way you hold it all inside
building up insecurity
I'll wait until you're ready
until you feel enough
you're my fuzzy feeling
you're more than enough


Title: Come

Come to me,
I'll show you where we can be safe
where no one will find us
where we can finally be alone
come to me, come back to me

you're breaking my heart, each time
it's hard to get used to happiness, I know
but I have faith, a little faith in you and I
so come to me, come closer
let yourself come

I keep on, wearing myself out
improving past lessons
letting my guard down
I'll put you first, my love
I'll always love you
even though you may lose patience for me

of course I trust you
there's not reason why I shouldn't
please know that I love you
with all I have in my aching soul and bones

you're breaking my heart, each time
it's hard to get used to happiness, I know
but I have faith, a little faith in you and I
so come to me, come closer
let yourself come


you're breaking my heart
each time I let you in
each time we get closer
but please come closer to me
let yourself come

Title: As long as we're together

I'd like to make plans with you
easier said than done, I'm aware
what if I said I've let go?
what if I said I care for you?

you grind yourself down, with insecurity
and I would do anything for you
anything to make you feel better

a little worry, a little strain
I'd lose it all, for you to call my name
and as long as we're together
I will continue to admire you
I will continue to be patient
and I'd lose it all
as long as we're together

I try not to protect myself
paranoid by the past
I hope that the scars will fade
if I could I would go back
I would choose you

a little worry, a little strain
I'd lose it all, for you to call my name
and as long as we're together
I will continue to admire you
I will continue to be patient
and I'd lose it all
as long as we're together

I care, I will always care
I love, I will always love
too much, too often, too foolishly
and I'll fall, deeper into you
as long as we're together


Title: Love Lost

I'm letting go, I'd rather be myself than nothing
I'm always getting misunderstood
and there's nothing better than disappointment
letting go of pain, betrayal and misery
you drained me like a tumour, my first love

I wish I understood you,
I wish I understood what exactly it was I needed to do
to make you mine, actually mine

I pretended I was enough
I always called your bluff
I felt nothing from your touch
unreadable, your expressions giving mixed signals

used to the cold shoulder,
I bury myself in the passionate sex
I never knew any different
there never would have been a good time to lose you
everyday was a silent battle
I loved you, I hope you know that

I wish I understood you,
I wish I understood what exactly it was I needed to do
to make you mine, actually mine

It's so beautiful, letting go
first love, isn't everything
you were a lesson learnt
a year I got lost in
a year I will never forget

Title: Seperate

I could sense the doubts within your voice
as your hesitant tongue played with your words
and as you held me close, for the last time
I knew that this would never last
I knew that we were always undone

I never thought that I would have to miss you
I never thought you'd give me up, let me go
but we're apart now
another lesson learned
I hope you find what you're looking for
everything I could have been
everything I was and more

you promised me a life, a future
that was everything to me
but still, you break me once more
you betrayed me once again


I waited for you to change,
I was told you can't change people
I was patient, gave you chances that no one else would give
but you never made it right, you never made up for it
but yet I always hoped we'd be safe

yet, still, I'm waiting
yet, still, I'm waiting
on you again, you again

you promised me a life, a future
that was everything to me
but still, you break me once more
you betrayed me once again

stranger things are coming my way,
apart, alone, but I live in better days
less suffocated, less controlling, a better way to remain
I never thought you'd leave me
I never though I'd have to miss you
and one day I hope you see all I gave to you
and one day I hope you call

Title: Swept

I can feel the hurdles in your voice
as you drag me gently towards your everlasting love
I can feel each trigger in me, and right now it might not be much
but you're my fuzzy feeling

I still get nervous, each time we meet
I embrace all feelings that I never knew existed
and yet we're so comfortable
we're so intertwined

I'll hold you with open arms
I'll kiss you with tender lips
make you feel warm and loved
I'll make you feel something you never did

I sway in the tide you give,
your aura dragging me from shore to shore
and I'm drifting in bliss
you glow so bright whenever I'm near
and I glow so bright when I think of you

I'll hold you with open arms
I'll kiss you with tender lips
make you feel warm and loved
I'll make you feel something you never did


and are you coming back soon?
please don't say you're sleeping alone tonight
I lay awake with the gentle truth, bare on my skin
it's always been you, darling
it's never to late to begin


Title: Betrayed

I breathe you in, you spit me out
I touch your skin, rough with betrayal
you stroke my hand, I feel numb
is this really all we've become?
just two bodies, nothing more to hold

I gave you my all
you gave me nothing but doubts
you made me something to you
but it was never enough
I wish I knew why you broke me so, why you hurt me so

I expected more than this
all we have is elusive
I wanted all of this, at the beginning you promised more than this
yet all I gained from you was disappointment

I have learnt to be less loyal, less kind
my mending scars bind doubt and fear together
you have taught me all that first love should never teach
but here I am, moving on and letting go of the tears beneath my burdened sheets

and sweetheart, what exactly did I do
I deserved your love, your time, your affection
and all I got for closure was nothing more than the love you gave to me


this heartbreak of mine
I would have never have been enough
I gave you everything I had
and what future did I imagine with you?
there was no such thing