Title: Struggle. By: Eleanor Diplock.

There's a place for everything
and everything will always find a place
don't you understand or want to feel
the look upon my face?

I'm struggling to find all the time to tell you words I'll never say,
you're the type of person that represents that I'd hate
but when I see the look in your eyes it takes me back, to home
and when I see the look in your eyes it takes me back home

Chorus: And I've never, ever felt this way
except one familiar day
where, the sun was shining brighter than any star in the sky
I'm struggling to find all the places that we've been in my mind,
If I could take you there, I'd hope you'd stay and be fine (mine)

I'm tongue tied at the thought of us drifting apart once more
I'm putting in the effort to say hello but my heart grows sore
I'm tongue tied at the paranoia inside my head,
It's made itself a bed and it's breaking my heart instead

Chorus

End: I've never dreamt a dream so beautiful
it catches my flaws,
I've never dreamt a dream where,
everything was beautiful.

Title: Us. Written By : Eleanor Diplock.

Life really is too short to even care at all,
push past insecurities, you're named a fool
I act so shy and innocent at times,
but with each line I sing I'm fucking you over till you're brand new and you shine

I could sit around and weep all day at how people change and it shouldn't be this way
but I've got no time to worry when I've got you
on my mind,
on my mind

Chorus: It's always been you right from the start,
you've got those eyes that seep through my heart,
and I found it, happiness
and I found you, happiness
once more

I had a vision of us in a few days time,
I would say years but that'd be a lie,
you and I are happy, and happy are we
I've got you and you've got me

Chorus

Ending: Picture me in a few weeks time,
is my mouth still creased forming smiles from lines
Picture me in a few days time,
is my heart still heavy with you on my mind...

Title: Linger. By: Eleanor Diplock.

Your face carries the weight of your heart
I'd hope to god we'd never sail apart
the tides pull us apart, and we're better this way
even if we don't admit it through the words that we say

Your smile lingers on my breath,
each word I say it turns us colder, colder
Your eyes they linger on my smile,
each breath I take your words are sharp, sharp as knives in the back

Chorus: I only care when you're gone,
I recollect my memories,
store them all day long,
I never call you back (you never call me)
I never doubted that

Your touch so cold upon my lips,
you say hushed letters any fool would slip down,
slip down for a while, a while

I'd swim the ocean, maybe just a river for you
helplessly helpless, and none the wiser too
I'd watch the flowers grow in hope for your presence,
in hope for you

Chorus

Ending: Your smile it lingers on my breath,
the letters I never said.

Title: Self-wreck. By: Eleanor Diplock.

I'm a wreck,
I know, I know
you're the track that leads me home

I lay my body down twice a day,
and you don't even ask whether I'm okay
so

Chorus: I'm hoping,
for brighter days where
summer seems not far away
I'm hoping
for brighter days where
everyone and everything is better


You and I have differences,
they say opposites attract when they clearly don't,
we all search for the perfect quote,
You, and I have similarities, si-similarities
but they're not so involved

Chorus

You call it flirting, but it hurts us both
You call if flirting, but it hurts the most

Chorus

Ending: Self-wreck, I'm writing myself off
I'm limited to every second we have lost
Self-wreck, it's my own fault for losing myself to you
my sanity, has fallen through
Self-wreck

Title: What you gave. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

I'll never make it all alone,
I'll never make it following the track, home
I'd never take it, the option to fall back in your arms
for another day with you would be oh so revealing,
I could challenge myself in so many beautiful ways,
but hearing your voice, I disintegrate


Chorus: You give me,
more than a feeling,
without any doubts you keep on reeling,
you have every ability under the sun,
you consume more than the meaning
when the day is done

I'd like to go to the seaside,
I'm becoming a recluse,
I'll fall in love on my own,
It takes me home
I'd love to go to the seaside,
it's tranquility holds me to the shore,
drags me back until I return no more

I'm just trying to remove myself from my foul ways,
but it's hard when all that is foul are habits,
bad habits, shake them off
shake them off
like all the girls you used to love

chorus

ending: You gave me something to believe in,
deceit, deceit
you gave me more than just a feeling,
you gave me stories to sink my mind in,
my teeth hang loose as the gritting thought of your name
You gave me something to believe in,
deceit settles in.

Title: And there was you. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

Lust lingers in our eyes,
we meet almost all the time,
our eyes say more than we could ever speak,
and when you move closer, I'm cliche, but I go weak

Chorus: And there was you,
another fool,
stood by yourself,
awaiting a lustful acquaintance
And there was you,
gentle eyes hooking, reeling me in
And there was you,
whose heart swam deeper than any specimen


I dream of you, you think of me
it's so brutal, a lasting brutality
but for all it's worth, I'd wear any scar or bruise proudly,
to be yours for one day and night

Chorus

Ending: And there was you,
flaws stood on your complexion,
I'm no soul to judge,
your beauty seeped through from each direction,
And there was you,
And there was you.

Title: Follow the sun. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

I'll follow the sun,
there's no chance of becoming more dumb,
when you're the one I'm seeking,
I seek the one my soul searches

I'll follow and run,
faster for any fellow who dares,
I'll follow you until my grave
your beauty devastates many eyes
but mine just wonder, mine just wander

Chorus: I'll follow the sun,
until I settle with you,
I see, it's not just the depth of the space between us
it's the weight of my heart that leads me to you every night
I'll follow the sun,
until I settle with you,
I see, I see
I'll follow thee

Your soft skin lingers on my touch,
I wish for lots, but for this I wish too much
I'll wait for you, I would
Debate for you, I could

Chorus

Ending: I'll follow the sun
until I'm old,
in search for you
I'll break the mould
until my feet can no longer carry me.

Title: Foolish fall. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

If I fell,
foolish fall,
If I fell,
would I fall into you?

Unspoken love, the sun settles down
but as it rises you're still the one,
free me, free me from heavy excuses
they're wrapped around my heart,
ever so illusive

If I fell,
foolish fall,
If I fell,
would I become a fool to you?

Chorus: You're always hoping for something more, a little more
because when you've yet to hold on to something so small
it's not love that you harbor,
it's never love that you harbor

Pick me up just to drop me back down,
I'm a fool, a fool I've found
I've doubted you for much too long
I've doubted you, for being strong

Chorus
x2

Title: I'll remember. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

Forget me, leave them all behind
they're the worries in the back of your mind,
they'll grind you down, to a blissful dust
there's no compromises, it's a must

Just let go, be yourself
you've been afraid of your shadow far too long, child
you've been told by many you're different,
be thankful you're not the same as those who spat those words at your ears

Chorus: To be one, to be wanted
to be thought about,
forget me not, forget me now
It's all up to you, you've got the world in the palm of you hands
you just don't know it yet,
you've yet to learn the ways of wisdom

If there were a moment where I could love you less,
it would not even be a split second,
you're the reason I'm clinging on to thin air,
you're the reason I can hope

Chorus

Ending: I'll always remember who you made me,
who I've now become,
I'll never regret or forget bittersweet memories,
you certainly now know,
once the thing you love most has gone,
there's nothing to love at all.

Title: For you. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

It starts with letters, hurdled from your youthful tongue
you act so wise but inside your crying, crying for advice
you seek helping hands from the bottle, it's all you've ever known

And it's never your fault,
never your fault,
you never were a selfish child, you just wanted the best
for everybody, but you

You're holding on to tethered lines,
breaking the mould,
tonight I reckon you'll be fine,
but with a sweet kiss goodnight,
your dreams will be bitter,
bitter alright

Chorus: You've got some big dreams,
in that melancholy mind
cheer up baby, you'll be fine
you think the world's over,
but you're only breathing, you're not even alive

You twist fate and spin round several times,
you make excuses, but I know that it's fine,
it's all I've ever known,
slowly let me down,
slowly let me down

Chorus

Ending: I'm watching you,
a balloon losing air,
deflating with age,
you're barely there
you're barely there

Title: How do you feel VS. The world. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

I'll still be waiting, wishing hoping
for another shooting star
even though 11:11 wont make dreamy pursuits travel far
I can still hope and wait and wish
I can still hope and wait and wish

Wish for another second, moment, hour
with you,
I could wish for hours, waiting for you
you'll never come,
you never come

Though
as strange as it seems,
your not easy to please,
simple boy like you,
confusing girls as you do,
you like to hurt them
you like to twist there words
how do you feel when, you're up against the world?

how do you feel when you're up against the whole world?

Chorus: I bet your mothers told you,
to be good for now,
to save yourself before you no longer are alive,
you choose the wrong words at the wrong time
I wish we could all just rewind,
but without mistakes,
but without mistakes,
who are we to blame? but ourselves

how do you feel when you're up against the world?
how do you feel when you are up against the girl?

ending: How does it feel, to have lost it all
when you never gave the effort,
you said you sacrificed like a fool,
but you could do better,
you could try.
How does it feel to see her with another guy?

Title: Repetitive. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

Tired and empty, 

cold hearted lies,

I've been gone a long time,

distance shows in my eyes,

distance shows in my eyes

I'm back and I want what is mine,

I know I've been gone a long time

distance spreads in my lies,

distance spreads in my lies

Lusting for happiness,

it'll never be mine,

it'll never be mine,

too many troubles playing on my mind,

too many troubles in my mind

Chorus: As repetitive is my life,

I wake up with less and less pride,

I would wish and I'd wait to be you,

your body so light and mind so free,

I could wait for forever and a day,

seconds eat up my energy, baby

Lusting for something more than love,

emotions get tangled up in a web,

time and time I've called,

you never answer to me,

you never answer to me

Chorus

Ending: As repetitive is my love,

It starts ends then fucks me right up,

As strong as my armour may seem,

I'm weak and I'm dumb and I'm a teen.

Title: Creation. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

One look into your eyes,
and your under my skin,
a deer in the headlights,
you've reeled me in,
you've reeled me in

What unbelievable behavior,
surrounding so thin,
the airs getting tighter,
the nights pulling in

chorus: For such gentle eyes,
you fill my blood with eternal anger
I'm frustrated, for you love
Because my patience is wearing thin
I'm bare to the bone, you've found the real me
you've found all I can be

I've so many flaws, yet you're so beautiful
a creation in my mind, so elegant, so subtle
but when I wake your gone,
the demon of reality awaits,
the demon of reality awaits, me

Chorus

Ending: I'd hope you'd be alright,
I'll sleep alone another night,
because dreams are all I know,
when you're there by my side, dear
you're there by my side dear

Title: Softly. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

Soft lips, slowly curse my brain
I'll picture you, again and again
until I get my fix, my fix of you
until I get my fix, my fix of you

I lose my focus,
the majority of the time,
the seconds that pass my eyes are never lonely
but when they are I feel fragile and broken
because without love, my hearts left wide open

Trample on me,
if it sets you free,
I'll be your adviser, your daily subscriber to all that is sweet
I'll feel your fears and drown them out with all that's warm
I'll feel your fears and drown them out with all that's wrong

Chorus: If I could take this all away
trust me I would, if only I could save you, lead you astray
your head hangs low, each time you look up
you just take a fall
each time you look up,
I will be your all

Sleep next to me, I'd hope one night we could
we could watch childhood movies and talk all night
like we should,
I just want to conversate
cause I just want you, more each day

Chorus

Ending: Softly kiss, softly sleep
awaken my soul, I know it sounds deep
I need new light to shine upon my dark days
now summers gone, you are away

Title: I can no longer. Written By: Eleanor Diplock

Careless hearts
Careless thoughts
say bitterness softly, quickly
washed out with a drag or two
of your favorite cigarette

I watch you, dumbly
I watch you, numbly
softly drowning sorrows with another sip or your favorite drink
I feel your sadness,
I feel your sadness,
like the shore it slowly drifts on in

Chorus: Would you look at me like I look at you
or would it scare you to feel the way I do
when all I know and feel is real
numb the pain and reel me in,
I wish for longer nights with you,
even though there's space between us
a sparks still new,
each time and hour that passes our lips
I feel you near,
I feel new trips

This would be so much easier
if  I couldn't feel,
feel so much sorrow,
feel so surreal in your arms,
all I would love for is for love in your eyes
but hoping is waiting and I've done my time

Chorus

Ending: I can no longer tell you,
how long I can wait,
my days are endless,
and I know this isn't fate

Title: For love, I'd hope. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

If I were to wait for you, again
I'd promise myself to hold back
all these emotions piling in my head
worry less child, sleep instead

If I were different I'd be so free,
catching all the enemies, setting them on me
keep them in the cage, trapped forever
you and me can laugh and say we'd never be apart
when the truth,
the truth is in our hearts

Chorus: Settle down,
Settle down,
you can't run away from all you haven't yet found
I'll keep you, forever my dear
buried deep inside, another ocean of fear
buried deep inside, I'll keep you near

To be rescued, to be loved, to be wanted
all because, I can and I should be
but with you it's not just reality
I could hope for another day
just another day with you
in your arms of safety

Chorus

Ending: I would wish,
I would love,
for you and me,
just because
there's no three words better than to say
I'll leave you and I'll love you
all the more today.

Title: Bitter Taste. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

Told, to be
better
to be smarter
to be stronger
to be happier
to be prettier
slimmer
wittier...

I'm a human being,
I can't be defined by a list,
of foolish letters,
I'm a human being,
I can feel everything,
but unlike you,
I can't taste the sour words I spit off my tongue
but unlike you, I like you

Frozen smiles I fear your fall,
you're beautiful ruins it all
and you're broken, I can see it
and you're weary eyes believe it,
fool, fool, so quiet now

Chorus: The bitter taste has left my tongue,
the suns gone down and we're alone
but I feel vulnerable like a child now
your dominant presence prowls proud
and I'd like for me to take it all away
and I'd like for you to come over and stay
but I'd be waiting...


Twisted sights I see you near,
nothing left for me to fear,
and I'd pray to god that one day
we'd become something, saved
in our memories

Chorus

Ending: The sour taste has left my tongue
The bitter words I yell from my lungs
and I'd pray to god to keep me this way,
because I know I can be better, and I've tried
I've tried, today.

Title: I. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

Softly sleeping as I wipe my smile away,
I start to agree there have been better days,
I can't help but sound obsessed,
you've got me so depressed
troubles in my mind,
questions all the time,
I'm tired of chasing every word you rhyme
they're all so damaging
to my youthful, deceitful ears


Chorus: I lack faith in myself,
I lack faith in myself,
because of this, because of you
the past stays bitter and true,
a constant reminder of all I had
I threw it away
Lust, love, sanity


I want to understand, you better
I want to last forever
seeking happiness deep inside
never forgetting you by my side
oh how sad I sound,
and how sad it seems
I'd rather be sad and alive
than dead and in my dreams

Chorus


Ending: Give me everything,
give me all,
I'll expect less, and take a fall
Because with you here tonight,
With you here by my side,
wonderful
wonderful

Title: And I. Written by: Eleanor Diplock.

I've always felt such disappointment
in myself, and in some ways you
I've never sought to far
in anything brand new

You're something special,
and you don't know it,
a rarity,
a rarity,
You're something special
and you just don't know it
a rarity,
calamity

chorus: Wrap me tighter with warm wise words,
I'd like to think one day I could be your girl,
and for now my dreams will do,
because in my dreams it's me and you
and forever I shall sleep
and forever hope I'd never wake
In my dreams, my hearts at bay


I try so hard to be a better person,
a warmer heart, a warmer soul
but when you're cold and bitter it's not so certain
a tougher try is no longer working,
I need new energies,
I need positivity,
I'll just sleep, I'll just sleep
in my dreams life's so perfect
in my dreams I can work at it
reality's such a calamity, when you're not around

Chorus

Ending: And I'd hope that you and I could settle down,
I don't care about kids I just want me and you for now,
I know my dreams are a million smiles away,
all I can do is watch them fade away.

Title: Slow, Slowly. Written by Eleanor Diplock.

And when we talk

I seem to forget the world

My regrets left behind

I’m all yours, your girl

I’m your girl

And when we walk,

Side by side and hand in hand

You’re all I need,

I feel in demand

And you know this feeling

Ain’t something you can plan

No, it’s nothing you can plan

Chorus: you make me feel like

Time’s gone,

There are no worries

Now we’re alone

You make me feel like

Summer ain’t gonna be lonely

Because I got you,

And you’ve got me.

Slowly,

Turn my heart,

But don’t dare rip at apart

You’re all I have,

You’re all I need..

Now…

Chorus

Ending : slowly,

Turn my heart,

But don’t dare rip it apart

You’re all I need now

You’re all I have now.

Title: Lost. Written by Eleanor Diplock.

A sudden rush of loneliness,

A feeling we find hard to digest,

Oh, boy, he doesn’t make me smile like you used to

He doesn’t make my eyes flicker like you used to

I never will move on from you,

Oh I,

Never will be gone from you,

A distance so close, yet so far away

The way you made me feel,

I’m trying to replace,

Bury over memories,

But I cannot hide your face…

Chorus: You and I both know,

Flowers bloom and feelings grow

But I’ve grown bored and old

Of feeling oh, alone

I’ve grown bored and old

Of feeling ooh, alone

Covering my eyes with sleep,

I think it’s time to love and weep,

But I can’t forget you,

No, I can’t forget you,

You were everything, everything

A face so brave, but eyes so vulnerable

Your heart so heavy, you must feel it all

But why so vulnerable,

You’ve got to let him go,

Why so vulnerable,

You’ve got to let him go…

Ending : There are times when I’ll be so afraid,

Loneliness is my partner till grave

And you and I both know,

Feelings and flowers bloom and they grow

Title: Oh how. Written By: Eleanor Diplock.

I sacrificed, it all
and like a child, I took a fall
Oh what a shame, to us all
What a shame, I called

I missed your words, of bitterness
I missed your twisted smile
that hooked me like none other for a while
I'd hope and pray,
deep down we'd be safe again,
in our sorrows we build a home,
but there's home without love

Chorus: Oh how to be delicate,
but at the same time so arrogant
I'd wish for you a thousand smiles
to take away your weary eyes
and you would look so beautiful
in my eyes you would shine
you'd beat any other light
above all this,
all of this darkness

And how to be over such broken bodies that shake my bones,
and how to get over such broken hearts that shake me, inside
I never knew I could feel, feel more pain for you, my darling boy
and how to be ashamed of myself,
for being more than just there

chorus

ending: And darling, I'd hope
and darling, I'd pray
but keeping fingers crossed doesn't ever delay rainy days
so tomorrow I will stay.

Title: Gave you all. Written by: Eleanor Diplock.

I gave you all

For you to drag me down

You’re pulling me around

Like a pre-owned rag doll

You’re spinning me around

Like you couldn’t hear a sound

Although I’ll scream from the top of my lungs

You couldn’t stick around

For this love you still haven’t found

But it’s all good, you’ll detour

From your desired tracks

Chorus : I gave you all

Not for you to knock me down

I’ll get back around

As soon as I find my head

I gave you all

Not for you to drag me down,

But I’ll get back up

When I hear the next sound of screams,

A sound of dreams, it seems

Utterly wonderful

(utterly)

Don’t say I’m the girl you’ve found,

Unless you know your sure,

You’re not even aware of the fact

You’re floating amongst the shores

A weightless body,

A heavy mind,

Just float on by,

As I watch you

Chorus

Ending: I gave you all,

I’m not your rag doll,

You can stop dragging me around

Like a lonely little chi-ld

Title: Fool. Written by: Eleanor Diplock.

Stuck in the middle of it all,
and you don't even notice,
you're oblivious and a fool,
self-contained, this time a good call

You call it flirting but it hurts,
when you say those careful words,
I hesitate each time I'm here,
Hesitate whether to bother and care

Chorus: And I'm sick and tired,
of always being sick and tired,
and I'm sick of pretentious people,
they're all around me,
spreading open,
I've lost my breath,
you've gained a token.

You should always know,
that I'm here,
even when you don't even care,
You should know that I'm always here,
even if you don't have the time of the day
to give to yourself,
away,
you give yourself suddenly away,
to private jokes in the bathroom
you're all alone....and

chorus

ending: I'm foolish for caring,
caring so foolishly,
I'd hope for a better way to say
without words on my tongue
how much it hurts,
when you're around.

Title: Little Late. Written by Eleanor Diplock.

alliteration is no replacement for substance

being someone else wont make you feel better

 being with someone who is trying to make something of something that isn’t

will never fill the space

Where you once belonged

You once belonged…

Here

Pretentious People, oh we are

Pretentious people, getting far

(x2)

Chorus: It’s a little late,

To change your ways,

To follow the track

That you once laid

You laid your body down to rest

Don’t be shy, we all progress…

Follow the crowd, they’ll follow you

Pretentious and proud

You’re brand new…

You’re brand new…

And I for one, am not afraid

To be the person I portray

Make what you want of it

Chorus

Ending : It’s a little late to change your ways,

You’re laid down and it’s not the same

Your body doesn’t rest no more.

How Can - Eleanor Diplock. Written on May 7th 2011.

Settle, Settle, Settle down

your far too young to be knocked around

you're not, you're not, you're not a rag doll,

so why do you present yourself as one?

How do you expect people to respect you

(when you act like your broken)

your not, your not a toy

so fix yourself, your open

chorus; open to desires,

open to little fires,

that thrive on your skin,

open up your eyes,

the world aint so bright,

although I'm only living a little part of it

How can,

How can,

how do you act so afraid?

you can't learn from new experiences,

without jumping out the page

I can read you like a book

but I cant foretell its end unless you change

you and I both know, we're foolish and the same

chorus

ending: Such a lovely face,

for such an ugly life,

you could throw it away,

or live your second lie