Title: Chances

I take back every breath I spent on you
I sold my heart to a man who I once knew
and I'm no longer hungry for you
darling, I made it through another night all alone
I've never been prepared for misery
I'm in such an awful state

yet it's so nice to see you
you want to feel the pound of your heart as we brush hands
and to me you are something
but nothing important
and to you I am everything
but something forgotten

Chorus: give me the chance
even if for just one night
to be yours to be held to feel alright
and give me the chance to be somebody
give me the chance to feel anything more than numb
kisses laced in toxic emotions
darling, you kiss me so softly
you kiss me so tightly
you give me another chance
to be another girl

we move so fast
drift on through one another
phases of encounters overlooked
but all I want to know is
can I be anything, can I feel what warmth of a body can bring

I perceive you and I as a figment of my imagination
layered in golden heat as we come close
this is what makes us envelop
we intertwine in all the thoughts we take as an overdose

chorus

ending: and in my daydreams, you are made of gold
I pause your volume in conversation and you're mine to hold
so give me the chance, another time, I promise the last
to be something, to feel anything
and I'll promise to kiss you so tightly, darling
so give me the chance

Title: Closer, already

I don't know why you come here
every time I am reminded
of what it was we used to be like
and all of the good things that we used to know
I know that you're not expected to go on second guessing
but with me darling, doubts are for the best

I don't want you coming here
any closer than you think you already are
I can't have you staying here
every time I see your eyes
I want to wonder your mind
discover your intentions
and I know you don't want to be pretending
but with me darling, doubts are the for the best


Chorus: and when you're with me, sweetheart
I don't believe that there is anybody else
you provide to me constant confusion
a jigsaw of emotions
tightly tied at my feet
buried softly in my heart
and it's what makes me strong
unlike the undesired passion that makes you weak

and I don't want you coming here anymore, darling
any closer than you want to be
I can't have you staying here
I am nothing, nobody important
I am full of false hope
I expect but you'll always accept
whatever is offered, second best

chorus

ending: and I'm in a condition
over used and under appreciated
and if you come any closer, darling
I'll leave you with nothing other than disappointment

Title: Burn out

I roll my eyes at the art of conversation
I've yet to meet you and I've already fallen for your emotions
I don't know, I don't know why
if I knew the answers, darling
I'd be long gone, long gone

wrap me up in toxicity from your breath
you're the only one who's ever wanted me
I could think of a thousand reasons why
I don't believe in you, you and I

Chorus: light me up watch me burn out
this pain will be everlasting
until we depart, I've yet to know why
and I'm grasping onto your frail bones
how do you mean, you're not coming back?
I've called you countless times
I've never been the one who's caught your attention

I'm waiting for the day
until I know you inside out
like the back of my hands
maps covered in scars
I hang myself heavy for your eyes
and I'd hope that you'd say that you love me
I'd hope that I meant anything
but it turns out just as I thought
we remain, we remain
and you break a solid piece of my heart

chorus

ending: and hold on
what did you say that for?
you know I'm too fragile for any words of false beauty
and what do you take me for?
your constant disappointment
I'm afraid your right, darling

Title: Fooled, once more

Second best, never any priority
and I'll close my eyes for years until I feel your presence
my heavy vein flow beats rapid whenever your hand is mine to hold
I've fooled myself all over again
I've fooled myself once again

I fall in, I fall out, I fall with
I fall in, I fall out, I fall with you
you're unaware, oblivious, elusive, awake yet unaware
my aching heart pours with every word I say
and you'll take me home, tonight
I'm sure you know that
you say you'll take your time
but a promise is broken once more

Chorus: and don't you worry
I'll remain here forever waiting for you
blossoming like a wilting lover
fading through shades of blue
when will you realise that it's here that I lie
my body restless it attaches to you

it's somewhat quizzical
how you're here when I don't need you
but when I want you you're out of sight
it's in my mind I wander through past interactions
hoping it'll never be us

chorus

ending: I'll stay here with you
second best, never any priority
I've fooled myself once again
you remain elusive and awake
I remain restless and still

Title: Only ever

Never what you wanted
my foolish heart filled with wine
I could be yours, but I'm not even close to such intentions
and all of me is ready
and all I've got is everything I can give to you

and here we go again
I've wasted my fractured breath on delicate disasters
and it's for you, another man to come home to
another day, in another way, I'll be what you want
and you'll love me too

Chorus: You're only ever a heartbeat away
you're tied down to my mind, to what my blood flow conveys
and I lust for you, I crave you
and I've really fooled myself this time, sweetheart
I've pushed myself right into all that is not mine
my foolish heart marinated in toxic sorrow
and I'll drown, I'll drown, until it's you that I find

do I even mean something to you?
if not a lot, a little?
coherent memories weighed down like treasure in my mind
and it's home I've found

I'm moving slow
heart rate decreasing now
and these hands they quiver
my love grows old
but I will wait for you, darling
I seem to wait for everything that has gone

chorus

ending: and here we go again
another day, wasted in sighs of heavy heartbeats
I'll wrap myself up in moments of reminiscence
anything to be a little bit closer to you
a fool to have drifted

Title: Darling

I just want you closer
I just want you for tonight
sail away with me, darling
for the mind shreds my thoughts every day
I just need to know that I'm something to you
make me aware of what it is you want
what your intentions are, if any
and I want to hold you, now

and you're howling at my face
speaking words of betrayal
and all the times that I thought I'd tasted love
you came close to what I thought I'd never have
and darling, if you're here with me now
I've never needed you so bad

Chorus: you're crawling around my head
and I need you more than ever tonight
my heart remains in between your teeth
gripped tightly by exhausted lungs
your heavy heart weighs my youthful mind down
and you're so fucked up, darling
the lack of explanations leaves me filled with fear
but, I've never needed you so badly
how did it come to this?

the remains of you and I
lightly salted in heavy breaths
the remains of you and I
soaked and marinated in false love
and this is what the result of departure is
my heart remains in between your teeth

chorus

ending: what will be, will be
this is the remains of you and I
and oh fuck, darling
I needed you so badly tonight

Title: Bitter Blood

It's the power of not knowing
where this could possibly lead us to
we're both full of doubt
so sick and tired of leaving without a tender kiss
and I see you changing from day to day
you're getting older, so much colder
somewhat embarrassed by words I say

and I'm far away from you
I can't force you to love me
I can't pretend those long lost words speak softly from your lips
I'll try my hardest to surrender to you
I'll try my hardest to be better to you
but darling, what I am, is no more than a self-destructing wreck

Chorus: I sink sharply
to be hollow for you
and I turn off the lights
I turn down the best of us
I turn down the voices in my head
it's the consistent distraction
so lay down with me
I'll speak no false words
hold me tight, don't mislead me

If you don't
I can't make you
I can't make your heart feel like I'm home
and it's all up to you
hear me in the dark, sweetheart
my final words to you
I lay my heart down
and I sink so sharply
to be a sweeter taste for you

chorus

ending: bitter blood seeps through my pores
and I'm no longer where you want me to be
and I can't make you want me
I can't force you to feel anything other than reality
and lay down with me
I'll speak my last words
full of hope and faith
that after you, there'll be a perfect world

Title: yours truly

I'm a second till I'm numb
and it's a riot in this bedroom
your eyes locked onto my movement
and you won't stay anymore
we're half different, half afraid
it'll only tear me inside
and what's given
can't be returned
the cards are in our hands

that's the end of innocence
giving it up, never giving up you
the end of what never began
I'd give it up, giving it up for you
and I'm beat down by the dullest light
you catch my breath
and your voice simmers inside

Chorus: how far away am I from being in?
how long will you remain with me tonight?
and it's the end of innocence
the catchment of deluded beauty
it's ours, for now
and I see no flaws but the sweetest ending
overdue, your departure
please don't leave me now
not now that we've become

and you're somewhat elusive
to my everlasting stray hands
and it's something I'll never know
the doubt that lingers

you leave my skin wandering
through tranquil pure skies of the warmest shade of you
and you leave me craving
craving nothing other than words from your lips

chorus

ending: and it's better now
not that I'd ever be aware
to be yours, to be yours truly
it's the end of innocence
the remains of what we know

Title: Armour

You took my heart but not my mind
this battles lost, the one of you and I
 and yet I confide in you
and your gentle eyes lead me through these darkened nights
where numbness fades and you return

and everything is everything
no explanation required whenever I'm buried in you
 in the darkness I meet my creators
and in a pure dream they'll be my suffocators
and then I'll be beautiful
floating through your mind like a forgotten ache


Chorus: lay down your armour
no need to pretend or to fight me anymore
I've been wondering about us
we should start a war
and we're alright
we won't last forever
but what I'd give to be in your arms another hour
but I'm over you
this time won't be the last time
repetition my most consistent lover
and you lay down your armour
you lay down your love, your warmth, your all

I don't need anybody
I don't need anyone
I just need you to be there when I walk through the door
I'll stumble into you
and you'll be ready to lose yourself
I'll be ready to pick the pieces up
when the sun rises and our lust departs

chorus

ending: and I'm over you
this time won't be the last time
lay down your armour, lay down your love
your warmth, your all

Title: Could still be

And I love him but it's not right
to be held back by a love so light
and it weighs me down
brings me to my weakened knees
when I fall I fall hard, I crash
and you take it all
I start over again

you've got a second chance
you could have left
but I'm irrelevant
to what you're after
and it's just that
nothing important
I'll never be of any value to you


Chorus: you could still be what you said you would be
when I met you
when I fell hard into your sorry arms
you've got a warm heart, cold hands
you're disintegrating into my disappointing ways
and you constantly fade
but burn brighter than any star I've seen before
and you could have left
but you said you had no choice
no choice but to wait
for me

you told me it's too late
it's over now
I took my time
but we could still be what we want to be
you told me a thousand soft lies when you met me

chorus

ending: and you could still be all that you want to
without me
me, an additional disaster to your unfortunate hands

Title: Purity of attachment

I want to forget but most times I don't
I want to let go but with you I just can't
and I know that I won't
but to be apart, even if for a day
I promise I'd miss you
and my heart will truly ache

the purity of attachment
filtered through by blends of subtle sadness
it's a mystery this is my destiny
it lies in the hands that didn't let me free
and I lay next to you
in a humid haze
and it's the purity of it all
you and I
never departed

Chorus: you're evasive
I close my eyes I awake
in an empty and cold state
and the mystery now is of me and you
I open my eyes and I'm no longer next to you
and I lie, in the hands that loved me

I want to recall all the words you said
the way your eyes held back what you really meant
and it's the way your skin shade faded each time you spoke through stiff lips
and I can't suffer then
any longer

chorus

ending: I run forever more, to you
it's the purity of attachment
there's no need to explain
there's nothing to even say
your eyes said it all

Title: Perpetuity

We're in harmony
marinated in lies of truth
and you soak me in
and here we are
voices, suddenly growing louder
our understanding tearing through hands to hold each other

we osculate until there's nothing left of us
and I seek in empty sheets
I breathe in what sadness weeps
unexpectedly we start over
picking up wherever it was we began

Chorus: everlasting love
you rush through my body
crawl from my mind to my soul
you remain still, settled
yet I still sleep alone
abundance of thirst for your touch
but these hands I own provide nothing other than misfortune

I let it go
and we initiate
the kindle in your eyes
tells me all that I need to know
and this is what it feels like, to have
to own

chorus

ending: intentions unknown
bodies colliding near
and this is what it is like
to have, to own, to feel
everlasting love

Title: Expectance

I take form of the sky, when it's blue
I have depth of the ocean, too, for you
and I've waited for us for far too long
you've locked your sight on this
and you stay the night
and you stand in awe

the lights go out in my eyes
and you're home alone
I will be better for, better by you
the consequences of insanity
kissed and accepted as we pull closer now
tidal veins collide as we remain

Chorus: I've been expecting your company
in nothing other than my imagination
and in my soul we're very complete
yet lacking compatibility
and how long will it be, waiting on you
this burning passion grows so strong
it crawls through my body and anchors me down to you
and I can't take it anymore
lonely, in your arms

I'm too convinced to care
to ever be aware of what it is you're after
I never ask questions in which I don't want the answer
and I reach out and take it all in
overdose on you
and this is what we are
lovers in full pretense
kisses of emptiness

chorus

ending: and you keep it all wrapped up inside of you
and I'm unaware as to why
but I hide inside of you
I'm the doubt in the back of your mind
and you can't be acting, anymore

Title: After you

When you stay
I see through you
and it won't be long
until you're nobody

I inhale vapours of you
drench my skin in lust
after you

Chorus: I'm leaving, soulcatcher
I hide away in creases of disaster
and I'm still longing, longing, longing after you
it's the way you look at me
it's how you think of me
and now we are
wondering
and you'll lay me down
lay down everything
and we'll never turn cold

after you
I will be
your tragedy
your tired thread to keep
the regret of holding on

the sky caresses my bones
and you lay me down
you lay down everything
and we grow old
intertwined in such a beautiful creation
in which disaster takes its form

chorus

ending: and after you
I'll be longing, longing, longing
after you

Title: Feeling gone

The feeling has gone
we waited for this for far too long
but if you just stay tonight
we can find someone


we carry on from where we started
begin from where we departed
and we carry on from nowhere
because we never even began


Chorus: and the feeling has gone
behind dirty eyes we'll have each other
we'll find something we can't ignore
but the feeling has gone
and we're running on empty vapours
filled with hope for tonight
skin to skin
bone to bone
we carry on


you run through my veins
control my movement
I sway my bones to be resistable to you
and it's you
it always comes back to
and it's you
the feelings return for

chorus


ending: and we pick up from where we left of
barely anything
and these wounds that you pick leave me sober sore
the feeling has gone
but for your eyes it'll always return again some day

Title: Just for you. Trigger.

I miss the way you made me feel
when we were on our own, on our own
and we broke everything that felt good
we both enjoyed destruction
and we sewed every leaking wound to breathe
and I loved the way you looked at me
with those bedroom eyes

and you lace my skin in sheets of bold love
my bones caressed by gentle skin
and when you're not inside I'm beside you
close to you
flesh colliding
with hope of what we could be
if we gave it a try

Chorus: And I loved the way you looked at me
and now I tuck myself into cold covers
as I shake each loss from my mind
I try to re evaluate memories we once had
and I'd leave him, just for another night with you
and I'll do it
just for you

if we could turn back time
could we learn to love right?
and if we turn back time
could we learn to love?
and if we turn back time
all that we had
all that we could be
could we provide it to another?
in a blissful purity?

chorus

ending: and I freeze, like I always do
I remain still, cold, broken
just for you
just for you

Title: supression

you echo in my soul

awaken forgotten spirits

and I try to be something, something to you

but when I mean not a thing

what is it you suggest that I do?

and I'm running in circles

doubting myself

questioning my morals

and it's all because I want to mean something to you

something to you

Chorus: a little bit of my mind confides dark stories

narrated in the voice of you

and I'm drowning in the brightest oceans

my vessel damaged from years of unnoticed need

and no

I can never have it all

but all I wanted was to mean something to you

and I can't stand this

suppressing myself to feel better for you

take advantage of my skin

use up my last touch

until I'm gone, gone, gone

never enough for you

never close to good enough for you

chorus

ending: and it's a relief to have spoken

to have finally told

the blending chaos in my heart

unravelled and sprayed in mould

for I ache and I grow old

waiting for you to realise

Title: Song for him.

In constant doubt
oh darling, I've been in love with you for years
pushed away by the fear of disclosure
but with you I'm so open
thrown into tides of you and me
our minds collide
and we both know
we're far too different to ever be

you're lusting after somebody else
and I cried for eternity
in every dream I'm forever tossed around in the dark
thrown by winds of distraction and fury
and I can't do this any longer
and now you should know

Chorus: attachment so pure and beautiful
this feeling of jealousy tears my bones through my skin
and every breath I take pierces right through me
but darling, can't you see?
it's all for you, all yours, always
but you'll never believe it

I'm aware she's a lot kinder than me
a lot lighter than me
me and my heavy heart
sewn tightly by rhymes for you

you're all around
tucked tightly into my every dream
and I can't have it all
no I can't even have you
not even close
not even a little

chorus

ending: I can no longer be weighed down by you
no longer be trapped by your touch
and she's all that you want
I refuse to be compared to something I'm not
and it's all for you
although I'll never be the provider
of that kind of love

Title: Weighed down by you.

Oh I despise this submission of jealousy
it's not what I want, not what I need at all
do I choose to be weighed down by a thousand thoughts
none of which I own?
and it's within this peaceful tranquility
where I'm all alone
but I'm still weighed down by you, darling
and it's not what I want

and time is a current for us
we'll drift by without speaking a word to another
we'll get by on nothing but pure ecstasy
and you cried, you denied why, but for infinity
but we knew we wouldn't last
how could we?
when we never truly began
with each other

Chorus: and do I choose to be weighed down
by a thousand thoughts which I do not own
and it's this, the reeling, you're pulling me close
but it's not what I want
buried underneath sheets of blue despair
I cry to soothe my exhausted head
and I love simplicity
but with you I lose wherever I gain

I'm stimulated by all intellect that is wrong
and I needed you, tonight, all mine
and you're all around
I'm ungrateful to every breath I breathe
and I can't have it all
so I'll let it be
you and me

chorus

ending: and I chose to be weighed down by you
the thoughts that press upon me every night
and I chose to be weighed down by you

Title: Come back, calm

Not that you'd even notice
the slightest change in the way I hold myself
closer, closer to you
and sweetheart
it's what you've said
and darling
we've come undone

all of the time has passed
we remain broken and lost
you were painted in a lace of golden hope
and I swallowed the last of the sun
but you come back
but you come back
and you calm down


Chorus: until the rain no longer soaks my skin
I stay here, still, fractured
longing for consistency
and it's not complex
all I want is for you to show me
lead my past these signs that lead me on
and I stay here, still, fractured

and you're paying little attention
to what's left of the bad you have done
but you come back
you come back
and you calm down

and why don't you answer me?
forever I'm calling you
wanting you

chorus

ending: and you come back
you come back and you calm down
what's left of the bad is justified
and the good deeds of yesterday are recited

Title: LLD

there is warmth in you
locked down by previous encounters
they lead you into dark nights
where you're lost in sadness

there is love inside of your body
it sweeps through brittle bones and sways you
the movement within your mind seeps through your skin
glows brighter than any light that's burnt out
it singes through your veins and causes beautiful distractions
to anybody who knows nobody
they'd think you're alive now


Chorus: It's love locked down
trapped within a cage of fighting desires
it's soaking your every breath
the sigh which wastes your being
and there is warmth somewhere
I can feel it from the impression that you're giving

you press down on me
full weight handed over
I can barely shrug my shoulders
but to your delight you're relieved now
and I could do it over and over again
until I see your eyes open lightly

chorus

ending: It's the warmth in you
soaking in sighs which waste your being
but it's this love locked down
trapped in books with no content
but I know it's in you
love locked down

Title: Love, unlimited

I search for the sun in your eyes
and mostly, when I discover this true sensation
that's how I am
what I'll provide for you
will be love, unlimited

and if you want me, say it
the bitter delay from words that your mouth softly mimes
and it's wasting time
but what is time when there is a lack of clocks in our minds
and it's hard to stay, but with you
I'll provide
love, unlimited

Chorus: and you'll give me something
until there's nothing left of me
I'll evaporate into clouds of new beginnings
without you, I'll improve
but with you, I'm always better
you increase my intellect
through kisses of soft wisdom
and it's the breath that anchors me down
to this new found feeling
love, unlimited


you leave heavy scars caused by light hands
words caress my skin and seep into lost bones
and I've been wondering
what it is we've become
this newly adopted unison
you and I
rising


chorus

ending: and what I'll provide for you
nothing less and nothing more than
love, love unlimited
as this new found feeling
for you to crave within every touch

Title: Body book

I couldn't figure out how to think
until night came
and emotions flutter across
to form my every loss
but the gain within this
was never discovered
until you came in


you and your current
have me soaking in waves of lust
right into tomorrow's shore
you've got me marinating in consistent beauty
you're the provider
you're the prototype
for the improvement of desire


chorus: I read your body like a book
I kiss your lips like they're sugar coated sins
and I treat you like a natural disaster
skin on skin, skin on skin
how it's never been before
and it's all mine
the taste on my tongue stands bitter now
developed and introduced to thoughts of how
this has made us

ocean tides gravitate my body
the movement unconsidered by tired eyes
minds conducted by thoughtless whirlwinds
and it's everyday
progression; for you

chorus

ending: and I brush off this heat
and it lingers around my skin
forms a barrier for you to seep in
and your current had me tied down

Title: Something, you are my.

you are my something
I'm not quite aware of what it is yet
but I'm in love with feeling so down
and you are my something when the light is dark
and I've been wondering
and feeling so lost

heavy treads on my heart in your feather footprints
but then you came
you are my something
unaware of what you are yet
but you get me denying
any sense or remainder of sanity
rotating inside this lonely state of mine

chorus: all I can do is push push push, push push
yourself away from me
close to me
long lost fantasies outlived by human interaction
and you are my something
I'm denying this feeling
it locks my mind down
ties my soul into my veinless body

wounds leak nothing for you
I improve myself
I'm better by you
I lay restless
my lust spreads like fire in my blood
travels through the very depths of emotions to be more to you

chorus

ending: tied down
you are my something
finally feels right now
you are my something

Title: Discoverrrrrry

In the lingering sky
I'll disappear
loaded down by loneliness
and it's all you hear
you're ignorant to be aware of emotions
and your whisper stays still
in my vision you're a soft white flower
fooling with the harsh winter ground
and it's chasing the voices, you hear all around

you place me in warmth
and I'm alive
you place me in warmth
and I'm finally breathing
afloat, alive

Chorus: and it's here you've discovered
the need for comfort
the dust on my bones you've yet to have found
the buried history on every evolving scar
and it's here you've found me
within the stationary delight of being homebound

you've got a good thing
but I'll forever give you up
and I'm all yours
always
you place me in warmth
and I'm alive again

ending: and you've finally found your place
you've got a good thing
but I'll forever give you up

Title: Never know

I think of you every morning
I dream of you every night
and it feel so right, knowing you'll never be mine
to aspire for something that could never begin
oh precious you are, in my mind

and it's everything I'm not to do
I'm living in a daydream
layered in shame and full of foolish words I'll never mean
and it's said, I'm the person I'll never be
but you belong here, for me

Chorus: you never know
how slow the moments pass until I'm next to you
and it's the very thought of you
blossoming inside my soul
anchoring my body and my mind, until they are one
and you'll never know
the feeling inside my lungs so pure and blue

I hang a heavy heart
upon my heavy eyes
and it's all for you to see
to feel how I feel
emotions you've never lived by

you sharpen my breath
pain lingers in my gasp
you never fail to surprise me
by never being near to me

chorus

Ending: you'll never know
this sensation of longing and new
but the colour of us
in nothing more but a daydream
is so pure and so blue

Title: S(w)tay

You won't change
I will remain
the stages of your smile
drifts through my eyes and sways my body
and I want you here

but it's alright now
lonely once more
I hate being alone as much as I despise being with you
and if anybody wants to know
I love that I'm home
and I tried to fix, to fix, to fix what's not broken
you still carry me

Chorus: I failed to keep the oceans clear
the pull of your body close to me
and you're watching me
restless and immobile
I lay my gaze on you closely
as your depth of breath trails in sighs of me
and you waste away
in rivers of my eyes flow
you still carry me

you won't change
I will remain
the phases of your touch
spread through my veins and sway my body

chorus

ending: you carry me
you carry me
unexpectant
standard intolerant
you still stay

Title: Spiral

There's no room for regret in this space between us
you plan your move, you think you're ready now
and this is your biggest mistake
running from what your mind has always searched for
and I take cover, in you
and the signs don't show
you let go
and this will be your downfall

everytime you go
I fight myself in the creases of your head
I don't think you want me much at all
who are you to make me feel so misunderstood
who am I to say I'm forever yours


Chorus: I don't see a reason why we can't be apart
we fall upon each other like we're forever stumbling in the dark
and this will be your downfall
hiding from what it is you really want
and you'll let go, retry a thousand times
with words you've never understood
and haptics that you're mind never registered
it's tough, it's all touch with you
but I'm not remorseful

you trigger past dreams
negotiate my feelings in the details of your seams
and I'm crumpled up, laid down next to your clothes
you plan your move, you think you're ready now

ending: and this will be your downfall
the spiral of failing to prepare for emotions that you can't recall
and I take cover, I take cover in you
you think you're ready now

Title: Closer

A flicker from your eyes
tells me all I need to know
to be aware of what it is you're hoping for
it's the sail of your voice from the bays in my mind
the tide that pulls you closer to me
that warmth I've forgotten to appreciate
and you're hoping for the shore
you're luring in my body

I wreck vessels to be closer to you
I wreck myself to be known to you
and you give me something that I couldn't quite compare to
the standards of this situation so developed
I'm oblivious to a sight that I'll never see
and it's a matter of perception, this daunting reflection
it concaves my lungs, fractured, unable to breathe through cleaner air
and it's you who kept me there

Chorus: truth is waiting to be found
and you've left this wound open for far too long now
you've created disaster through fingers of beauty
and I felt it, all for you
in this moment

I could see your face through the colours of dusk
and this sun hangs heavy on my eyes
reaching out for something to hold on to
I'd have such remorse, to have to let you go

chorus

ending: and I'd wreck myself
to be closer to you
to be closer

Title: what I lose you gain

I try for you, I fail for me
constantly considering the consequences of my actions
your shadow a figure I'm resistant to see
and you're in my peripheral vision
you're struggling to find the words you'd like to say
and you'll just stay still, hiding, hiding away

I'd take my life
to be human, to be beautiful, to be appreciated
and I'd give it all
for another moment with you

I'm leaking at the seams
fractured bones as a result of a touch from your body
the collision of you and me
the roughness of your tender touch
the underrated need to believe

Chorus: I'm scared of what I'll look like in the end
and I would take it all
just to be, just to be
I'll try to be a better me
to make this sorry sight a better night to see
what's it like to be alive?
this toxic air is all I breathe

I'm trying not to lose my faith in you
because faith is all I have now
and I try for you, I fail for me

chorus

ending: I'd take my life
to be human, to be beautiful, to be seen

Title: Give you up

You and I paint patterns with our warped minds
we linger for disasters to trigger all the beauty in chaos, inside
I've seen you before, but I've made up my mind
I'm here to stay, forever wrapped in your touch, in your lies
I'm never going to give you up
no matter how hard you try to defeat me

you and I, the creators of the nights sky
constellations intertwine every delayed tear in my eyes
you and I like to get away, to get lost in another
I'm never going to give you up
no matter how hard you try to defeat me

Chorus: What could I expect from you? nothing better
I've got many intentions, some impossibly good
so don't you think of leaving me now
and don't you understand?
what you're doing for me
it's all for you, for you, for you

I tuck my worries in tight when I lay my body to rest
and you stood me up, once more
alone again, your return is prolonged
like you always will, like you always do


and it's the encounter of our eyes
it brings it all back to me
a consistent delight
your kisses mean more than others believe
and it's you, it's you, it's you, it's you
you're never going to believe
that it's you, oh it's you oh it's you
and I'm alone again

chorus

ending: never going to give you up
no matter how bad you mislead me
never going to give you up
no matter how hard you try to defeat me

Title: THE one

I've been tried and tested
better by you, born restless
you put me through more than I know I could ever take
and I'm better off all on my own
self pity, a companion I've grown

I'm not the one,
that could ever satisfy you
you wanted me all
but I gave you nothing
not anything close to warmth at all

Chorus: you did good, moving on
and knowing once, it wouldn't hurt me at all
and I'm not the one
who can give you what you need
who can make you feel worthy of such a devastating love


and not the one for you
not the one for anybody with any sense at all
and you question, my doubts, leave me cold and without
your love, all I wanted
was for you
to want me
to need me
to hold me tight to your chest

chorus

ending: and you know now
I was, I'll never be the one for you
my darling, it's the end
the departure that's been over due
not the one

Title: remains

Dragging out last hope
as if it were a drug
except this dose I've been given
doesn't numb me enough..
(I'm waiting, waiting)

Lingered thoughts
 I see them through your skull,
they're wrapped up in your mind without any choice
I'll tag along, but it won't long till I'm gone...I'm gone...

chorus : remains of you,
built up upon the side of me
a shadow of false lust...can't you see
can't you see...
I'm slowly spinning in and out of consciousness,
but all you see is love which hasn't properly been discussed...

Staggering on my way back to my house,
but you're not sat outside anymore,
I've left you too many times outside my door..
(don't come in...)

chorus
ending : Motionless, you move so suddenly
it daunts my mind and yet I can still breathe..
but not for long, you'll pull me out and in of your false pretentions

Title: slower, slowly

And when we talk
I seem to forget the world
My regrets left behind
I’m all yours, your girl
I’m your girl

And when we walk,
Side by side and hand in hand
You’re all I need,
I feel in demand
And you know this feeling
Ain’t something you can plan
No, it’s nothing you can plan

Chorus: you make me feel like
Time’s gone,
There are no worries
Now we’re alone
You make me feel like
Summer ain’t gonna lonely
Because I got you,
And you’ve got me.

Slowly,
Turn my heart,
But don’t dare rip at apart
You’re all I have,
You’re all I need..
Now…

Chorus

Ending : slowly,
Turn my heart,
But don’t dare rip it apart
You’re all I need now
You’re all I have now

Title: self-promise

So now that the light has gone,
Are you gonna take me home?
Or leave me alone,
Like last time, last time
Leave me on my own,
Like last time…

You know you’ve got my heart,
From day one we’ll never be apart,
You promised me lots of things
That would make me happy
And I said to you,
I said to you..
Those 8 letters

Chorus:
I love,
I love, love, love
You—
But you’ve got my heart
Im afraid of what you capable of (of)
You’ve got my heart,
Im afraid of what you’ll do to it,
My heart, heart, heart, heart.

I always promised myself,
Never to fall in love,
Unless I was sure, of it…
And I made myself,
Build up all this luck,
So I could trip and fall
Domino effect, spilt it all

Title: Bewildered

A sudden rush of loneliness,
A feeling we find hard to digest,
Oh, boy, he doesn’t make me smile like you used to
He doesn’t make my eyes flicker like you used to

I never will move on from you,
Oh I,
Never will be gone from you,
A distance so close, yet so far away

The way you made me feel,
I’m trying to replace,
Bury over memories,
But I cannot hide your face…

Chorus: You and I both know,
Flowers bloom and feelings grow
But I’ve grown bored and old
Of feeling oh, alone
I’ve grown bored and old
Of feeling ooh, alone

Covering my eyes with sleep,
I think it’s time to love and weep,
But I can’t forget you,
No, I can’t forget you,
You were everything, everything

A face so brave, but eyes so vulnerable
Your heart so heavy, you must feel it all
But why so vulnerable,
You’ve got to let him go,
Why so vulnerable,
You’ve got to let him go…

Ending : There are times when I’ll be so afraid,
Loneliness is my partner till grave
And you and I both know,
Feelings and flowers bloom and they grow

Title: consistent pretense

alliteration is no replacement for substance
being someone else wont make you feel better
 being with someone who is trying to make something of something that isn’t
will never fill the space
Where you once belonged
You once belonged…
Here

Pretentious People, oh we are
Pretentious people, getting far
(x2)

Chorus: It’s a little late,
To change your ways,
To follow the track
That you once laid
You laid your body down to rest
Don’t be shy, we all progress…

Follow the crowd, they’ll follow you
Pretentious and proud
You’re brand new…
You’re brand new…

And I for one, am not afraid
To be the person I portray
Make what you want of it

Chorus

Ending : It’s a little late to change your ways,
You’re laid down and it’s not the same
Your body doesn’t rest no more.

Title: hunt this down

The space between us is like a protest,
I won’t win until the other side rests
You’re constantly on your toes,
And it’s a shame you’re still the same
Yet so different to whom you were,
Not long ago

When I’m with them
I think of you
You’ll learn, in turn
To think of me
But I’m scared, so scared
This won’t progress naturally

Chorus: I don’t wanna be despised no more,
I don’t want to be chased, because my mind isn’t free
My dreams are all there, but trapped so tightly
My heart, oh my heart, it’s so sore
From all this hatred my mind harbours

Swim to me,
I’ll be the bay you’ll drag your body to,
I’m not confused anymore,
But I’m no longer sure as to what to do…

Chorus

Ending: Nobody can hunt this down,
You and me,
It’s all I had visions of,
Reality it’s more surreal at times then we dream

Title: Eye see

When you close your eyes,
do you see dreams or nightmares?
When you look inside my eyes,
do you see monsters or fairytales?
is it hard to find,
something more than just lust?

oh when I look inside,
I see mess and destruction
oh what a fool,
a fool am I?
to be afraid
of passing time

It has been so long
but who am I to be shy
when you were the one
to took me by...a lie

Oh look at this,
what mess,
oh my,
to be faithful I
I, I

This is such a shame,
to be one of your lies,
but who am I to blame
my butterflies are your name
and they are writhing inside

Ignorance is bliss,
but then who am I to lie?
when your so afraid
you don't even want the time

but who am I
who am I
to blame
for my stories

Title: Always like this

It’s always been like this,
you open up the door
and hit a sip or two
it’s always been like this
you can't help but drink like you do
and you're
stuck inside a cycle
full of vicious despair
stuck in a cycle where your
heart won't care

So you numb the pain
whilst you watch the rain fall down
your window panes
you're watching faces past by
and you're wondering
how you have become who you are,
through all this nightmare
and you’ll
stay there, till the morning
because tonight you don't care


You're holding on for something new,
but every time you find it, you
throw it away just like a vodka shot
tears like vodka hitting your throat again
every night with you is the same


So lock the drinks up, away with all your fears
you can’t keep hiding from the real, tears
you, hold on for a miracle, you give up when you’re so near
you can’t stay any longer, now your numbness is all you feel

Title: Repetition

Tired and empty,
cold hearted lies,
I've been gone a long time,
distance shows in my eyes,
distance shows in my eyes

I'm back and I want what is mine,
I know I've been gone a long time
distance spreads in my lies,
distance spreads in my lies

Lusting for happiness,
it'll never be mine,
it'll never be mine,
too many troubles playing on my mind,
too many troubles in my mind

Chorus: As repetitive is my life,
I wake up with less and less pride,
I would wish and I'd wait to be you,
your body so light and mind so free,
I could wait for forever and a day,
seconds eat up my energy, baby

Lusting for something more than love,
emotions get tangled up in a web,
time and time I've called,
you never answer to me,
you never answer to me

Chorus

Ending: As repetitive is my love,
It starts ends then fucks me right up,
As strong as my armour may seem

Title: self-wreckage

There's a place in your head,
where my heart calls it bed,
and it's staying here tonight
hold me, hold me
like you've never held before
hold me, hold me,
like you've never felt before
like this


there's a place in your heart,
where I know we can't depart,
our fears will anchor us tonight,
there's a fear in your eyes,
a thing I can't describe,
but it's settled here tonight
and in my reflection,

Chorus:I see your demons,
rise and burn, rise and burn
and I can't help but pick out all my flaws
because they take over me tonight
there's a place in your head,
where my heart calls it bed,
and it remains here tonight
there's a time and a place
where fate may take it's place
but I can't help but fear your not alright


I've never been,
one to seek advice
but when my hearts in the bin
it's all i've got to drown in

There's a wreck surrounding my body,
and it kills to say I'm fine,
the truth is that I'm worried,
but I hold no fears tonight


End: hold me, Hold me, Hold me
like you've never held any body,
held my body, before
grasp me, throw me
I'm a wreck,
your own ragdoll tonight,
I said I'm close to you,
so I'm alright

Title: Steal me

You come in like the rain
you go slow like the tension before the storm
and I'm still in love with your face
your eyes which sail to the middle of the sea

and you're deeper than anything I've ever seen
and I will remember you
with the cold nights the lonely thing we'd ever share
would you be there?

Chorus: and what I saw could never be true
the ideology of me with the inner you
and I said, I'd steal you away
for a moment of dignity with the lack of familiar faces
and the next time I steal you away
will be the time I keep you darling
the day you stay and we remain

there was a change in the way you breathe
I didn't want you to change for me
I hear the sound of anchored sighs
but you're intoxicated, it layers your lungs in doubtful dusts of previous lovers

chorus

ending: and the next time
if there ever would be
the cold nights we could share
would you be there?
to steal me away

Title: Everything with someone like you

with someone like you, everything feels alright
bitter tastes evaporate from my broken lungs
I'd hope that you're the one, if not, you are my prototype
I'll tip toe around your mind until you let me in again
and I'll say it too soon, those seven words
laced in doubt, laced in lust, laced in you

your bedroom eyes
undress me with words of quiet beauty
you flicker, you sway, you absorb my silence
if we happened to part in the lingering morning
we're here for a reason
with someone like you, everywhere I look
the world is returned in bright colours
and my steps fool the ground with fallen desire

Chorus: with you, everything is easily said
we enjoy nights of comfortable quietness
you've taken what you need, and I give you what you aim for and more
we never speak of words we'll regret
we never let our dreams rush to our head
and accusations, if any, we aren't to blame
with you, everything is a smoother grain to push against

my personal fortune, mine to make the most of
we lack false illusions, although I'll say you're delusional
I know deep down I want to agree with you, I do
it's all in its right place, arranged in subtle need and want
knowledge walks miles on your sprawled sheets when your body is vacant

chorus

ending: everything is alright, with someone like you

Title: For (you) nobody

It's easy to fall, it's easy to fall fall fall
into you, your arms, your eyes, your touch
an abundance of long lost warmth, with you
you knew I was slowly diving for you
and I'll be here, waiting, until I'm old and used
a different shade of blue

and you'll shoot me down with words as delicate as cold
and I'll lace your kisses in ribbons growing gold, from your veins it glows
you're disappointed now, afraid of any outcomes that will prevent you thriving
and with your hand, firmly placed on my hips
we began to start a better day together
and we'll stray far from bitter nights

Chorus: and I can take on it all,
I can evolve into something better, for you, for you
I can try my best, to be the better person, for you, for you, for you
every little change I make, every rule that I break it's all for you
but you're too ashamed to be aware
do you even do you even, know that I'm there?


by your side,
I wear my shades of sighs
and I waste inside at the thought of departure, here
the thought of departure, from you, from you

this is for nobody,
I have nobody, but you
but you don't matter
and sweetheart, what have you done?
darling, why did you run so far away from me?
when I keep you buried in my mind at home
where you'll stray far from danger
and I'll protect you, in your darkest hours
for you, for you, for you

chorus

ending: darling, when will you
darling, when will you ever understand?
what it takes to be a man
and my love, don't call me your own
it's not it's not enough
it's not a name I condone

Title: For

This is for us, the remains formed in stone
this is the place where we don't feel alone
and I, will never belong
in the arms of your doubts
they hold me softly and sing me to sleep
in the voice I feel pinch my ears
I, will never belong

for you, for me
I'll evolve until there's nothing left of my broken body
until I disappear, for you
and to you
I'm home

Chorus: It's hidden in the gaps of your smile
your light freedom that drags with every kiss
and my skin feels golden, my breath is cold and it bites
and this is where you plant yourself in me
this heart has soil plenty for a tree
and you're a colour, green
my cheeks turn rosy at the thought of you never leaving
and in the wounds of your skin I climb in the dark
I see your world, and it's hidden,
but it's for you, it's for me

I held you tightly, bodies close
but your eyes distant, miles away from this constant cry I bleed
I pressed your skin to mine
and I did this for you, for me too

I capture this gaze with no more but my minds reality
and you disappear, completely
far away, you swam the oceans and left my body in the sea
weighed down with loves despair
no longer a fear, no longer a memory

chorus

Ending: the start of the departure,
the beginning of the near end
it's for you, it's for me
and to you
I'm home, a place you'll never be
my body cold and slumbered
a sight you'll never see

Title: Tides of reality

What do you mean you're not coming back?
the air between us is thicker now you're always outside
my lungs scream for you to stay by my side
but the windows closed and you're still, cold and this is where we divide
our differences greater than ever before

two bodies against the rocks
thrown by the tides of reality
two bodies against the rocks
thrown by the tides of reality
kiss me softly with hurricane lips
and breathe in words of insanity

chorus: this is not, this is not how it's meant to be
you're too late, it's too late to ever want me
I push you away with cold hands
pull you closer with every doubt I have
I stitch your wounds in words of shame
I blame myself, I blame myself for the lack of better days
and I can't imagine you ever leaving,
I can't imagine you ever leaving me
how could I ever cope with, with and without you?

two bodies against the rocks
thrown by the tides of reality
kiss me softly with hurricane lips
and breathe me in with words of insanity

this is where my flaws show
they seep through like stains on a silk blouse
and you can't remove me, no, you can't remove any memories
and this is where my flaws show, darling
this is where my words never make up for it
for it, for us

chorus: and this is the warmest stare
in the stillness of this encounter
I drag myself away from you with my tongue tied in delicacy
I try to find myself another you
 but my minds been pureed within this wire cave in which I hide

Title: Home (you) in my mind

I swear I've never witnessed something so fine
within the grains of ambition, you're all mine
you sleep softly in my dreaming days
and wherever I am, I'm thinking of you
wondering if we'll ever be together, as one
I'm eroded by previous tongues and their empty promises
but it's you I long for
it's you who I wake up longing to see
it's you who delivers wisdom through passionate hoping hands

it's deposited in the curves of your smile
lust is sewn into the pupils of your eyes
and allure is the oldest enemy of mine
and I hope we'd get anything better than this
and I know you're trouble

Chorus: take from me what you think you deserve
give me sweet loving hands
and I'll never accept anything less than the satisfaction in the light
when I see you for who you are
when your eyes burn bright with carelessness
yet I'm all you cared about

you say you've got that loving arm
and I haven't seen you lately
where have you been hiding?
in the corners of my mind

chorus

ending: and you should come round later, if you're free my baby
drown me in whispered pretense
that scatter your unintentional emotions

Title: What you could do with, what I could do without.

it's hypnosis, the motion in the outline of your body
my mind sprawled in the feathers of your skin
it triggers my heart, my heart rate so rapid
and it's a thing for you
that I've never put into actions, but something I'll always have
and this is the end of you too
but you're not aware yet
and this is the end of you too
but you're not aware yet

it's the better part of you
that catches my mind through a sentimental trap
obstacles as wide as your emotions
have you ever felt what it's like?
to be alone but not so lonely

chorus: and it's the difference that divides you and I
we're just two atoms waiting to collide
and it's within the words you speak when you kiss my neck
and it's written in the shape of your pillow when you've had enough
but baby, it's all you've ever wanted
and all I could so happily do without

it's the side to you that nobody has ever seen
the steady flow of sadness leads me to lay where I'll never be
I slowly comfort you in words that hit your stomach when you've had a hard day
it's the gentle flow of toxicity and tranquility
all to soothe you

chorus

ending: and this is it
the never ending tales of you and me
it's the stories that drown my heart
and enable my mind to see

Title: 2 bodies

I wear my night shade to beckon you
you've become a stray to my one night loving
and this bed it keeps me warm
stains me in sinful remorse
and it's the contact of your skin, the lingering substance that wears my veins thin
and you're in my body, absorbing any remains of hope
that this could ever get better

and its' the day we won't ever remember
that day we asked for more than this is
and I would give myself to you, for nothing less than a collaboration of memories
and you're dragging me across the silky sky
and my heart is crashing against the rocks
and it's your bodies tide that brings me to my feet
yet I swore I'd never fall, for any fool, you an exception

Chorus: and our two hearts are chained
any amount of hope that any other could have hoped for
it's all diminished within the look in your eyes
they flicker and shift within the motion of my smile
and it's our intimacy, which we never lack any of
and our two hearts are chained
a situation in which we are denying

and it's from my lungs, you're drained
you sieve through toxicity thrown from my mouth
and it seeps into your mind like late night tales
and it keeps you awake, the cold that pinches your skin pale
and it's from my lips, the words you can never say

chorus

ending: it's the one night warmth
that your body craves
it's the bitter taste when you're walking away
and it's the one night warmth
that your body craves
but your mind was never here, and your body won't stay

Title: Away for far too long

I'd wish you were the one, if not you are my placebo
and we'll travel through the nights until we find the sun
and do things we know you'd like
and I think I'm in love again
imaginary encounters layered in dreamy sheets
and if we happen to depart, we both know we'd despise that
but we could become metaphorical
you and I are beyond this, for a reason

and I insist you come over
when my eyes speak of darkness
but my body sways with light
and it's for you, my shameful situation
and it's for you, my foolish patience

Chorus: And you've been away from me too long
far too long
I don't need to listen to what they say no more
and I just never seem to care
and this world isn't big enough to drag me away from you, all from you
and this is for you, my home
this is for you, my drifting happiness

it's inside your bedroom eyes
you've found warmth in my one night bed
sunset fool my eyes, and it turns you on
you run and collide with my bare body
and you've been gone from me too long
and this feeling has never been in an abundance
and this feeling has never left me at all

chorus

ending: and you've been away from me for too long
your body now a summoned stranger to a bed that was once so warm
and it's the stormy weather that awakes me from my slumber
and it's the nights your bodies away from me that make me wonder
and is it all for you? of course it is, and you know it now darling

Title: Dirty hands

Your dusky eyes, they aren't enough
they set my soul to sleep
they awake my forbidden love for you
and it's just too much for you to see

your eyes they flicker with forgetfulness
and it's your awareness I long to believe
your bodies sunset it sets my mind on fire
with words that can do you right if you just wait and let it be


Chorus: and it's not enough
to tell me that you're there, for me
and it'll always be too much for you
to understand, to hold my hand, to let me be

your body sways in the cold winter air
I catch you as you fall to your knees
a well-needed rescue, a trigger to your minds creations
I'm all that'll I'll ever be
and it's not enough, and it's all too much for you to let me breathe

intoxicated by an unknown substance
transferred from the corners of your lips
I feel you in my veins, I feel blood within my pain
and it's all just a show for you to see

chorus

ending: you witness my flaws in return for a droplet of reality
a common error by my hands
the disaster loiters in every plan
and it's just the right amount of justice that I'll never see from your dirty hands
and the air you breathe is laced in rumours

Title: A-wareness

We're both aware deep down, you're feeling something else
something that you can't disclose
it's the desire to be latched onto someone else
without feeling anything more than doubtful remorse

you and I know that you're better than this
but you're stuck in the blind spot of this all
and I could pick you up and put you in your place
knowing that you wouldn't fall
and it's this, you do it yourself
without awareness as to your faults


chorus: are you looking for someone better for you?
someone that will pick up the destruction after everything you'll never do
and are you alright by yourself tonight? I'll be the warmth to surround you
it's the piercing kisses that I get from your lips, the rarity
that tell me all that I will ever need to know
and it's the blue on your hips that show me that you're mine to hold

on the other hand, I'd like to let you go
but it's something that I can't do alone, yeah
and you waste in sighs as the morning grows
and you never want to wake up all alone

chorus

ending: You knew from the start
we'd never depart on anything less than broken promises
you knew from the start
that you felt and you're feeling something else

Title: Could I take it all away

So who are you to say that we're through
you're a doubter, my lovely boy
and who are you to take the blame for my actions?
to take this all away

and what if I cared too much about you?
what would you say?
and this isn't fair that we're no longer
this isn't fair we're apart
I don't know why you do it
I don't know why you can't do me better
I don't know why you put it into a lack of words

Chorus: Are you unsure of what it is that I can do?
I could have helped you but you're too low
are you aware that I love you so
could you ever let me know?
to return my touch, is it really too much to ask of you?
and it's the despair that you feel every day
and I try to take it all away

and what if I promised you
things that you didn't even know existed
and what if I took you places you've never seen before?
would you love me better, would you do me better?
than you did before?

I button up my shirt
and the lies they get worse
as we're separated now under the sheets
no longer inside one another
we speak what we feel
but you're too silent, for me

chorus

is it really too much to take it all away?
could you bring me to brighter days?
I'm exhausted of this daily occurrence
show me brighter days

chorus

ending: and is really to much to take it all away?
is too much to do you better?
and it's the despair that I feel every day
exhausted, I couldn't love you any worse

Title: As close to you as far.

It's the lack of interaction, from you
I crave a distraction to find you out here in the night
and I create a calling sound to try and get you to come a little closer to me
it's the lack of common interests
that subtly drags you away from my sight
and am I anything you wanted? not one bit, not one bit, not one bit

it's the way you look tonight
almost cold and distant from surrounding eyes
and it's that look I crave to taste from you
and it will never be mine

Chorus: To be considered the right amount of good enough
to be looked at beyond my skin and bones
and I wish it could be this way, forever
and I wish you could love me a bit better than you could
always a bit better than you could have done
if you noticed me and that's all I wanted

I roam endlessly to be far nearer to you
but apart the distance extends us
and I am thirsty for your hand to be placed in line with mine
and it's the lack of time we always have
it will never be mine

chorus


ending: it's the sharp words that I'll never hear
it's your limp touch that I'll never feel
and it will never be mine, and it will never be mine

Title: Still, with a heavy heart

You said you'll get what you'll need and more
you evolved into nothing less than a figure I dreamed of
what are your intentions, what is it you really desire to do?
what are your intentions, what is it you really desire to do?

you said you'll never stumble away with your heart full of wishful thinking
and this is where you'll lose your balance, this is where I'll gain all control
and we shelter from piercing stories that we overhear with naive ears
and it seeps into our skin as we turn to another with that sudden glare of hope in our eyes
and we'll always rush into the day, where our intertwined hands only stop us in our way

Chorus: Do you thaw into the Winters delight?
tonight your eyes are mine, and mine only
they flicker and sway as I remain still
still with a heavy heart
and it's the sweeter submission that takes us into the throbbing dark

I languish for your skin upon mine
I hanker for your taste and breath within my dusty lungs
and it's the pungent love that caught us in the headlights
lets us soak in utter remorse and despair

I anticipate for you to wake me in the morning
before you've left my sheets empty and cold with your lingering scent
and your words remain like bullets in my brain
and it's you, it's you, it's you
still with a heavy heart

chorus

ending: you said you'll get what you need and more
you're fired up with dusky eyes
and it's the submission into the night
you remain still, still with a heavy heart

Title: Latched onto you

To be able and ready now
I carry my hope inside heavy kisses that linger in your humid breath
and it's love that hangs anchored on the creases of your eyes
and it's this moment, that's all mine

we make our decisions with the encounter of our lips
you cover me in soft sheets of patience
and you'll never depart, because you know what it feels like to be lost
in anothers mind but never in anothers heart

Chorus: I latch onto your gaze
with is layered in gold and silver
you throw your wishes to the wild
and you always wake up to find that you've surrendered
and I latch onto you
a process in which we've plenty of time to see
and it's the way your face curls so perfectly each time you're in my sight
and I latch onto you, bodies close, bones tight

and I've dreamt of bluer skies
we swim through lakes of emotions just to find another
and it's a love that's like a movement in the night
it startles my body, puts my brain into gear
and there's no need to want to be anywhere when I'm with you
there's no desire to leave your side

chorus

ending: do you really want to wake up to find
that you and I have surrendered
and to be able, to be ready now
catching kisses with stomachs churned tight
you stay buried in my touch and ever so still
and this is all I've ever dreamed of
this remorseful love is surreal to me now

Title: Distant Slumber

I ache for you
in a distant slumber I awake for you
and to you I'm just a long lost body
for you to have never left
here we are staring each other down
waiting for this passion to bloom
these lips wait to taste your skin
just let my love lay you in awe
you've got to know that I adore you
baby this mind will always protect you
feel it all over, let it wash within

I bruise my skin for you to feel what I feel
to let you sink into my veins, to let you feel all that rules my body
and such beauty, such beauty in this disaster
the creators, yourself and I

chorus: and darling I ache for you
in a distant slumber I awake for you
for your bones to be close to mine
in daydreams I waste for you
and long gone memories break to make room for your smile

I let words break my skin
for tears I wear so thin
and it's all for you my darling
and I know you'll thank me one day for trying

chorus

ending: In a distant slumber I ache for you
in a nightmare I awake far from you
and it's all to be cared for by you, my love

Title: Mine

Now there's a cold bite to our youthful breaths
we turn to another before we turn to mould
we're always rushing through the day
I don't need love, it gets in my way
but I need you, I need you, you
to feel anything other than the depths of disappointment

chorus: oh baby are you free now?
my nights are getting lonely
without your body next to mine
oh baby are you free now?
I need your presence with me
your silky skin is mine to touch and love
oh darling is it all for me?
how you hold yourself
how you sway so beautifully
when there's no one else

are you still waiting for the summer nights
where you never were alone
where you had someone at your side
are you still praying for the light now?
when you're swimming in the shadows
and you hold your head down low along with my kisses

chorus

and it's all for you
but you'll never realise
it's flickered on your eyes the love you want to feel
walls surround your mind
and I'm stood outside in the cold awaiting the meeting of our lips

chorus

ending: Oh baby are you mine now?
please do let me know
I've been away for a while and it's time to let you know
oh darling, I loved you, a thousand rainbows on my tongue
for you

Title: Convictions

darling, what have you done to yourself?
you've had many times to run
you've broken us, our intertwined bodies they come undone
and oh, I've never loved the look in your eyes until now
when you're weak and your smile is fading
and after all you will and have put me through
this one's for you

don't call me, it's not enough
and you were the one who told me not to be so foolish
yet here we are in the outskirts of the forgotten lovers
embracing what's yet to come
and this one's for you, darling
what have you done?

Chorus: be sincere or be cynical to me
and you'll lose what you've done for me
and my eyes are on you, especially
look at what you've done for me
there's nothing to show
nothing to show
this is the effect of broken promises
a lifetime of worry drawn from my eyes to my knees
and I'll beg I'll beg I'll beg for you to return
and to be sincere


dragged away by hands of those who made it
locked under caressed movement from your body
you'll arguably love me nonetheless
just for tonight
just because you need me

chorus

ending: you don't do it,
you just do it to yourself
for your  mind to be cleared of panic
for your other half to be drowned in relief
you're not made of anything more than I am, darling
your depths as shallow as your ability to cope

Title: Inevitable

Blinded by the fright in your headlights
your eyes say so much more than your lips may ever need to move
you breathe me in like a better loved substance
I'm tired of emptiness in your smile
and nights in cold sheets, alone
I'm exhausted of your everlasting glow

this is the life that I came for,
my body sways to the movement but it's not for you
and this is the moment you think you waited for
but you're unaware of lust surrounding you
I'm full of raised hands doubting my minds success
my eyes lock in on you and you're in my gaze
this second feels like an hour and away we are

Chorus: where am I,
dissolved into your veins,
the feeling you've prayed for
I've become an addiction to your bloodstream, unused
separating what you've always wanted to feel but never understood
encouraging ungiven kisses in the pattern of dawns embrace
and I sink into your bite
too many nights I've spent covered in exhausted sheets that lay my seeping heart to rest

and it's you,
elegantly oblivious to my intentions
and I'd be the one to say that I'm good
but I'm never enough for the winner in you
and it's irresponsible, I'm written off in a hesitant haze

chorus

ending: and it's in the crease of your smile,
the whites in your eyes tell me everything I'd ever need to know
I'm not the one who's afraid to say it
absorb me, embrace me, pace yourself in me
and I'll hear your whisper, I'll hear your whining

Title: Are you mine now?

We stay up waiting for an expected arrival
the lingering worry of your departure
and I don't need love, it only gets in my hearts way
oh baby are you still mine, will you forever be?
do you sway into the wind when you're alone?
oh baby are you still stoned still?
and this lust is like a movement in the night

and your eyes were flowing with the dusky signals of the sun
yet you're fuelled up with your heavy mind
the insufficient creativity of you and I
forever pretending this is where we'll always be
do you really want to be gone?

chorus: I lay open for you to remember
how you used to be
oh baby, not so innocent and pure in this tranquility
tomorrow doesn't matter as long as our sheets feel clean
and we're fired up with heavy hands
you're lost in the movement of the night

oh sweet dreams I've never had
encounters of your eyes meeting mine
a gaze I'd hold until I leave this world
and it's this lust that's like tension, and it's just right
and we fall into the sky through floating whispers

and we're still exhausted for this is never ending

chorus

ending: you weep into the creases of my pillow
you can't take the built up trust inside
and do you really want to be like this for a while?
prepare your shyness into the warmth
for this dismount is like a body which burns bright

Title: Surrenderer

And if I promise to leave will you subtly offer to stay?
and it's what lies beneath that keeps my mind far from bay
the tides of bad timing and human error
physical flaws repulse any person who looks my way
and it's the stillness of the sound, the coldness of your breath
that lingers and will forever set my heart to lay


startled by your headlights, your mind is overworked
you'll stray far from words that could never come out of your sewn lips
but the actions you take speak so quietly, until we meet at our hips
and somehow we believe we could never be apart tonight
how could this ever define us?


Chorus: I become the surrenderer, to your required call
and I'll never leave, I'll never leave
I fear too much will be forgotten, I'll be dead and gone
buried under remorse in your mind and past worry in your heart
and I'll never leave, I'll never leave
as long as you're somehow with me
in any form, any vessel, just be


the words I speak from my lips
I'm the first to hear
and forever you'll be the blame my darling
for being far too close in a place so far but near
and the more I push you away the closer we become
intertwined in a haze of madness
caught as fools by the sun

chorus

ending: and I'll never leave
you carry me, you carry me

Title: Dexterity

I've seen lonely hands
I've seen bodies fall
and I'm waiting waiting on you
I've seen clouds low and you so high
let me go without a single goodbye
dexterity of you and I

I've witnessed buried love inside lost vessels
carried by the fear of the unknown
I see you my love, I see you passing by

chorus: I've knocked down walls for you, to see your body in the afterglow
this, this you'll never know, dexterity
I've crossed many a river to swim to you to drown in you, to drown in your form
I've lost many a day to be by your side
but you'll never know, dexterity
dex, dex, dexterity pulled apart by the tides of you and me
dex, dex, dexterity

I'm not afraid of love, I'm afraid of you
your intentions undisclosed I drift away from you
and you'll carry me in your pocket alongside your empty heart
and I'll follow you my love until we both give up
and all we have is dex, dex, dexterity


chorus

ending: to be a dreamer you must become a fool
trapped inside a single cell of hope
and I and I, I am waiting for you to appear

Title: NMNL

No more no less
I'll procrastinate without you
and it's within the meeting of our eyes
no more no less, no
it's a feeling I can't quite digest
I compromise for disaster
chaos lingers on your lips
no more no less
heart heavy, unneeded mess
and I'm surviving, no more no less than I did beside you

warm sheets cold heart
bodies next to another
kisses kept under dirty covers
hideaway, we hideaway until we're over
the discovery of us leads to the final words we already said

Chorus: my heart is surviving a little more but much less
by your side I'm in too deep of your pretense
I absorb your warmth
 through witty words from your lungs to your chest
you have no cares in the world, you're just getting by
I'm the figure in the back of your mind
overdosed on lust it's not surprising
bury me under leaves emptiness
I hideaway, I hideaway until we're over

I just can't keep up with the reeling
the promising outlook we'll forever cease to see
I'm wrapped up in your chemistry, human biology takes the best of me

chorus

ending: no more
no less
no less, no more
until we're over
no more, no less
no less, no more
until we're over

Title: Fragment of you.

I watch you evolve, so effortlessly
you could blind any fool with illusion
dressed in the night's we'll see
what more is there to do but try
what more is there to do but try

leave me no space for surprise
no flicker from my eyes
speak softly, catch me guilty counting the truths in you
fragments of my heart linger inside of your minds blind spot
but you're too full to feel at all
you're my counterpart


Chorus: don't wake me from this daydream
I've become the pretender, the surrenderer
to your daily call
I can never run free from you
into your arms my life was thrown
still you declare it's just the beginning
we're better left unsaid
all the worries in your head
they crawl on our faces when we're sprawled in your silk sheet kisses


so when, will I be enough for you?
will you promise to see me through?
I'm not easy but I'm easy to breathe
absorb me into your flaw filled mind
I'll stay awake until I'm what you find
and when, will I provide sufficient love for you?


chorus


ending: nothing requires a change in my mind
but it's so deceitful and unexpected when you smile
and you hold still, you remain elegant for just one moment
and it's a fragment of my imagination
the endless suffering of my creation
and it's all for you to feel
it's all for you to feel

Title: Something good has to happen now.

in your presence
I am clueless, hopeless, restless for you
and in my eyes I make no faults
for you, for you to pick up on
and in this unappreciated moment
where are, we are hoping

and you, hold me tight
where it hurts me most
where your force kicks in my bones
and you, hold me tighter for now for her forever

Chorus: And in this white sky,
I drop, I drop like snow for you
I lay myself down on your skin
for you, to feel
and something good has to happen now
for I am getting tired
and something good has to happen now
for I am uninspired, by you

there's no way to tell that I would stay with you
a flicker from your eyes and I'm free to move
swaying in the breeze of your cold breath
I await a signal, I await your warmth yet

chorus

ending: like I always do,
the pitiful fool
and it's all, it's all for you

Title: You make the better me

I try not to think about, try not to think about it
but I'm restless in the naked light
with you by my side, yours truly
I'm restless I long for you
I caress all that I give to you
all we have, all we have is
emptiness

you are enough for me to love
this time I see truth carried in rough hands
brushed into the cracks in you
and it changes, it changes, it changes me
for good
for you
for the better
for good
for you
for the better

and you are enough
enough for my begging hands to hold
join me to sweeter things
to days of content, of non plasticity

Chorus: surrender, upright
admit the unseen pillow stains
that crawl from your mind to your eyes
we take, we take, we take
all that we can so we make it
to make it together
take my body, take my hands, take everything
I'm restless, restless for you

and I had blue shades from ear to ear
but I shook them off, I crossed them off, for you
to see the better me, the habitants of the ever flowing sea
and I love, I love, I love you
a thousand skies high with you

I had to move, move, move
your motions too much
it creates nausea in my bones
the impact you have on me
do you feel it too? oh I long

chorus

ending: these four walls keep me warm for you
they never leave like you always do
I long for, long for, long for you
crave, crave, crave you
you're all I see, all I need to be a better me

Title: Belief in you.

It's the non existence of yourself and I
puts my eyes to shame, puts my soul to sleep
a sedative to your constant blames
a heroin who fails

and where my body lays
a collection of feathers
each branded with a little bit of you
and when you collapse, to hear the grind of your bones
you are home, you are recognised

Chorus: I can sense you're feeling lost
the paths of your mind are lead by the foolish hand in which I lead you
if you fall, I can't promise I'll stay with you
the things you can't be are there for me to see
to understand, to love you more for
I believe in you, in you

I've seen you in all your scars
caught up in wires made of previous encounters
and you're not to blame, oh of course you're not
i'll set your soul at ease
away from the dragging and gravity of the sea
I believe in you, in you

chorus

ending: and I can see you going far
as far as you feel that you can go
you think as you become
form, evolve into another
into a form better
let our hips collide
it's time for you and me
and all we can never be
to rise

Title: vein flow.

simplicity forms in the meeting of our lips
momentarily we're remorseful of words we never say
we always remember, remember the flaws of our time
push aside any grains of me at my best
the main participant of flaws

and you've the responsibility to let me know that, to let me know that
this is the flow, the crow of you and I
lingering in the darkness
covered in bare skin

Chorus: in your bedroom under the covers
where we are, out of safety
we blossom, I blossom, under you
we dream like canvas
waiting to be found
I don't want to discover you've gone
it's not too late to let me know, let me know that

it's wrong to be alive without you
the brush of your skin is enough to hurt
I don't want to discover you've gone
you should let me know that
what you're intentions are, if good, if any

I await an incline of romance
consistent lust drains my veins
my lung thuds heavy for your chance to change
my mind buried in my heart, lingering on my sleeves
it's time to let me know that

chorus

you want to run, you long to catch up on love lost
and you fade and you fade and you fade
into the nightfall
it's too late it's too late it's too late
for you to change now

Title: You.

You are gold, for the price of silver
you never think, you just become
the purest light lingers on your slender shoulders
and still you believe you're nothing special
I awake tangled in you
I remain in awe of your all
awaiting for you and I to grow, to blossom

and in my daydreams,
you speak so softly
beauty flows from your lungs to your lips
and I'll wait for you to fuck up
although I fear I'll grow old before I witness your mistake
this is the only chance I've got
and it isn't enough
enough enough for us both
there's not a sea big enough for you and I

Chorus: glide over, glide over me
breathe me in, spit me out through remorseful words
you claim you're grieving
you're bound to fall
my vessel sinks fast in your shallow mind
and tell me darling, who deserves to be superior?

I, for eternity, take the blame
if only you would hold me
momentarily forget about the world
if only, if only, if only
you'd rise above the violence in which our tongues fight

chorus


ending: to rule my world
to be thought of so fondly
and in my daydreams
you speak like summer clouds
you kiss like winter rain
you act like serene justice

Title: The downfall

forever buried in the depths of loneliness
suffocating on everything I'll never be
enough, enough, enough for you
visible flaws, outweigh any good in me
oh the possibilities I could endure, if I had beauty on my side
I sleep with silk sheets to feel soft, to feel you

I could never know, how to feel anything
anything other than low
picking apart my flesh and bones
until I'm destroyed, until there's nothing left of me but simplicity
innocent imitations of how we could be
I pretend I pretend I pretend you'd never retreat
in my imagination, you are made of gold

Chorus: a conversation for me to hold,
you're the reflection staring back
criticise me until I stand old
I promised to never listen
I promised to never understand
but when my heart flows bruises
you're hesitant to offer any forced hand
you move so fast, and I so slow
we're both the same somehow, so I'm told
we're both near as we are far apart

unseen comparisons,
thief of the mind,
I could never be rescued
drowned forever ago
for you

chorus

ending: I sleep with silk sheets
to feel soft, to feel close, to feel you
I rest beneath seas
to feel rough, to feel far, to feel you

Title: Breathe you (easy)

You're the liquid I weep
thickening with fear you run through the depths of my veins
my body a racecourse for failures you've yet to blame
I'm the shadow in the corner, waiting for you to come home
I'm the emptiness inside your head when you're all alone

You're all I need, all I need, all I need
I require you, needle to my skin
numb I'm oblivious to voices fading in
and I see you, I see you, I see you
standing there in awe of all that's in your sight

Chorus: You're all I need, all I see, all I breathe
intoxicated in the depths of my lungs
I inhale your touch, your sound, your mind
you're all I need, all I see, all I breathe
hidden in the dusty hinges of my bones
waiting for you to call
waiting for you to call

I'm part of the irreparable cluster
we're parallel lines
buried in our bodies
the constellations I forever see in you
I lack courage, I lack beauty

chorus

ending: I'm the shore to the ocean
I'd never leave you for one moment
you always come back, and you've no reason to
suffer, suffer, with the lack of everything I could never be
in your arms, I've yet to breathe

Title: Yearn.

My emotions as raw as the sun in denial
slowly surrendering to the night sky
I wait for you, I wait for you
this is the everlasting dream of you and I
the depths of my vessel are forever aching for you
for your touch, your reassurance, for your sanity
for comparison is a thief but with you I'm much better

my lonely heart with a rate so rapid
for your hands to see, for your lips to feel
we've to become lukewarm
aware of our surroundings
now that it isn't just us, never alone

Chorus: Tell me honest words through your silver teeth
I'll listen, I promise to try to be everything you feel inside
although you're not one to discover how helpful lies are
through the grit in my bones, to the delicate home I've survived

I'm the soar in the sky,
forever falling into you
I'm still unaware as to why
I treat you like I do
but it's the best that I can do
in such short notice, the acknowledgment of your beauty
wraps around my iris, throws my mind back and forth

chorus

ending: oh, and how wonderful it would be
for you to actually notice me, to take in every shade of my skin
to learn to love, learn to leave, learn to return
once more, once again
yearning, yearning for your presence
an art I seem to practice

Title: Another song for you, which you'll never read

I like how you have ambitions to follow through
your'e the answer to what I'll never be
helpless to you, why won't you notice me?
I fall through the creases in your silk smile
I linger in the back of your lungs, hanging to dry
through the sharp breath of your tongue, I deny
any hope to make you mine

I count up the pieces that lead me back to you
you are my darling, my love, the winter dew
my eyes flicker like flames as you walk on through
you're deserving, I'm nothing like you

Chorus: And I'm in the dust of your bedroom walls,
listening to your beckons call
I am the person you'll never love
I am the person you'll never dream of
and you you're the sun, the sun to me
you are the one thing I'll never feel

you are a child playing in the depths of the water
you like to play with the fire in the winter
and I'm just the lining in your coat
keeping you warm as the night takes it toll
and I am the person you'll forever ignore
I am the person you'll forever ignore

Chorus

ending: I am your pillow, soft for your hair
I am the night watcher although I'll never quite care
and I watch you sleep, my beautiful boy
and I watch you rest dreaming of another girl
but that's alright with me as long as you're happy
that's alright with me as long as you're happy
without me, without me, without me

Title: In my veins.

I feel you in my veins, it feels good
every time I drag your atmosphere in
I never question why we're here
all I know is that this has never felt so right
by your side

melting into your body
I divide my mind from your worries
you're everywhere I've never been
through dreams I've yet to feel
as long as your here, I don't wanna know

Chorus: How could I confess all the actions I can't express?
it starts in my chest, gets caught in my lungs, thrown out like cold air in my mouth
you're the only thing I need, the only thing I desire, that I know I want
that I could ever get, easily
test me, with all my patience we both know I'll never have
I feel you in my veins, it feels good
knowing you're the same

I've so many unanswered questions to ask you in my mind
but you're late, you're never on time and I don't know why
I wish I could kiss you a thousand lullabies
when you're lacking the time to sleep
I feel you in my veins, it feels good

chorus

ending: don't leave me now,
in the gutter of your mind
god knows why I'm here
why I stayed so long
why I actually took my time