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Wednesday 17 December 2014

Title: First Priority

I long to come alive, to never be alone
I'd do anything to call your name
to understand you better
to be able to just simply hold you
to be able to just simply love you better


whenever, wherever you need me to be
I'll try my upmost best to let you come closer, to get closer to me
whatever it takes to get to know this love better
to know myself again


this is the interlude
the loudness of comfortable silence
and the way that I move whenever you're present
the way my mind stops thinking

Chorus: you make me feel whole again,
like this is all i've ever needed
I'd give it all just to hold you tighter
I'd give it all just to hold you closely
I'll happily die in your arms tonight
knowing that this feels so right
that I am whole again
that you fixed me


if you want me to go,
I'll leave
there's no way that I'll ever hurt you
I just want you to be mine, and mine only
in the same way that I am yours
x2


I'll take care of you, you know that
you'll always be my first priority
and I will always dream of you


Chorus


End: you already mean so much, more than you'll ever appreciate
with your arms around my waist, there really is no better place
and this is the interlude
the loudness of our comfortable silence


and I'll do anything to keep you wanting me


Title: Hot sex

Take me to the place I know best
where most tired eyes and aching bodies go to rest
I'll wrap myself around you, my legs tight around your waist
I'll take my time, I'll take you all in
you don't know how much I want you
how much I've wanted this

let's slow things down,
I want to taste you
you'll be begging me to stop
I'll be begging you to come
to just let go


just when I think you've had enough of my teasing
of my big eyed stare as I start on your tip
you pull me closer
you tell me what you want


Chorus: I want you,
I want you
I want all of you, every inch
inside and around me
holding me close and feeling my pounding heart
feeling my grinding body
I want you to notice how hard I'm going
how passionate it is


let's slow things down,
I want to feel you
I want to kiss down your body
taste the tension and excitement through your skin

Chorus


End: and after drips of my success run down my face
I showed you how much I want you
you filled me up, filled me up with warmth and admiration
and only minutes later, I want to do it all over again


Title: Lately

I feel your skin, electric
I feel you all over me
inside every inch
our lip harshly intertwine
please tell me how I better myself
please tell me where I go
I keep giving it all, just to love myself
I keep giving it all just to love you

no one before you
you, the rising sun in my aching body
I'm so happy that I get to hold you
and I keep losing and giving it all
just to let you cut a little deeper
let you see who I really am

It's always been there
chemistry galloping in the background
a white noise so silent
we chose to ignore
and I never saw this coming
I never thought I'd love again
and I keep giving and losing it all
just to let you come within
let you come a bit closer

I see the flawed parts of you
far from anything I've held with heavy hands
I'm sewn together with doubts and kind intentions
but, you and I know, how much love I have to give
and how often I take pride in at all

I'm giving it all
body and soul
to love you
to love you
to love you

Title: Cold Pores

I want to give you what you deserve
but why are you choosing me?
I'm not the only choice
so thank you for trying to make me your number one


I want to give you all you deserve
but there's just one thing
why are you choosing me?
I'm not the only one


I want to keep you warm on a cold night
and we've talked about our highs and lows
and what goes up must come down, as you know
I've been in a better place


Chorus: I must admit that all the time I gave you
I can no longer wait for approval
I want you, to really want me too
and I want you to really need me
because I'm forever feeling that it's all one sided
that all my love never sinks into your cold pores


don't trade me
I never thought that I would have the nerve to
tell you all that's within my head
don't trade me in for her
don't trade me in for anyone


Chorus


End: I can't wait to have you back with me
but I can see that you're starting to wish you'll see the back of me
and I don't want to lose this
I don't want to make this fall apart
I just really need you to need me, to want me
as much as I ever could for you






Title: Luck

I watch your body give in,
give in to the exhaustion of your long dull days
I realise how much my heart belongs to you
you have my full love, always


I honestly feel like I've been here, by your side and in your arms
for much longer than I've been truly alive, truly breathing,
truly taking in every little thing that you have to offer
it feels like I've known you all my life
the natural abilities of our bodies and minds
the way we got so comfortable



Chorus: I've been waiting for a being like you
someone so pure and patient
someone so understanding
I've been loving so deeply
the wrong heart might I add
but you know now
it's you I always wanted
it was you all along
the proof is in the way we are
the way we are


to be completely honest
to be completely content
all I need is you
x2

Chorus


End: all my love, always so pure and demanding
I'll be here waiting for you
until you let my love go
until you give in to the impatience


Title: Let me take you all in

It flickers, sways, gets lost in the grooves
as I fall deeper into the flaws of you
the parts of you no one else admired
I wish I could say with ease, with no complexity
how much I need, want, crave, love, care for you


it hits me hard, like nausea
the type that won't go until you allow it to sink in
I can't believe how patient you've been
how loyal to my broken mind


you tried to teach me how to listen
I tried to find someone like you in 1000 different ways
I tried to change how my brain functions
and even though I said to you that I can work hard to grow


you tried to teach me to listen
but I turned it all away
I tried to stop this in hundreds of ways
to allow us to get the things we are missing
and I can feel your soul, i can see the sun as it glows


Chorus: slowly, slow, slow down
let me take you all in
slowly, slow, slow down
let the love pour in
and even though I said to you I can feel your soul, I can feel our love as it grows
even though I said to you, I'd try harder to not feel so low
slowly, slow, slow down
let me take you all in


you tried to teach me to listen
but I turned it all away
I tried to stop this in hundreds of ways
to allow us to get the things we are missing
and I can feel your soul, i can see the sun as it glows


Chorus


End: even though I said to you
even though I proved to you
even though I try until I'm exhausted for you
I want our love to grow
I want our time to show
and I can never wait until you're back again



Title: Mind Creations

You always leave, when I need you the most
you'll never know what's inside my head
I'm waiting for you to understand the darkness inside my mind
the way is subsides whenever you are near
the way you stare at me, like I'm broken but you can fix me
I'm forever fragile
I'm forever fretting


so why don't you ever stay?
I'm always waiting for you to come home
spend some of your precious time with me, one day, won't you?
will you ever?


I go through daily battles,
to be stronger for you
to deny any situations I've created and believe in
I go through battles for you
so that I can understand myself better
so that I can keep you with me
so that you'll still love me, even if a little


Chorus: your gentle lips, your voice that soothes my misshapen heart
it's all in the way that you move, the reassurance in every motion
I kept you away for so long, I made the wrong move
and why did I do so,
when you're my world now, you mute these demons inside


I go through daily battles,
to be stronger for you
to deny any situations that I've created and believe in
I don't do it on purpose, I promise you
it's a built in flaw
one of which you know plenty of now
and I'm so so sorry

Chorus


End: will you ever come home to me, darling?
will I ever come home to you?
I hate waiting to be where I belong
will you ever come home to me, only me, darling?

Title: Talk Sense

If you talk enough sense
I completely lose my mind
you are my focal point, I don't want to lose sight of all I want
I'm in deeper than I thought I ever could, and I love you more than I thought I ever would
If you talk enough sense
I completely lose my mind


I found love,
you're too patient, too kind, too reassuring
for it is my broken mind, my broken heart that prevents us from being content
right in front of me, you talk sense to me
and I absorb it like I absorb the knife that seeks my skin
I found love
no need to cut anymore


this is the love I've been given,
this is the love I've long craved for
you're everything I've ever wanted
this is the love I need to hold onto
the love I need to prove


Chorus: if you ever lock me out,
if you ever have had enough
please have the knowledge that I love you, always
my fear is always my downfall
and if you ever have had enough
please don't lock me out
I will keep on trying
until I am fixed


I've been attempting, so many times
to ignore all the voices inside my paranoid mind
to ignore all the pain behind my past
and please trust me, confide in me, when I tell you what's going on
to be able to do so, scares me completely
but for you I am trying, trying to prove

Chorus


End: I'll take this love you've given,
I'll take good care of you my darling
and I'm so sorry for everything
for every day
for each hour that I'm quiet, deeply  thinking
about how to improve, about how to do better
for you
for you


Title: I couldn't want you anyway

Hard times are coming,
and all my friends are nowhere to be seen
I'm in the dark again, in the dark alone
all my good friends don't understand
my heart and eyes keep hoping that the darkness will be gone


my thoughts are full and plenty
of misery and consistent battles
it's no wonder I'm thinking really deeply
when you're better off
when you're better off
when you're better off

Chorus: All I do is drag you down,
you didn't want me anyway
don't even keep reminding me that this is a big mistake
please be aware I've been trying so hard not to break
now let me go, now let me go
there's nothing left for you here anymore
you didn't want me anyway


don't keep this fire burning,
when the fuel is long gone
we'll wait until the world stops spinning
until you realise that things are wrong
don't keep this fire burning
when the fuel is long gone
we'll wait until the world stops spinning
until I'm gone

I couldn't watch you anyway
your profile pulls my heart closer, until it's almost ripped out of my skin
I'll keep my hope in my darkness
and let me my mind get worse
I know that my broken heart has let this love rest

Chorus

And I couldn't have you anyway
not to myself, not ever
I watched this love fall apart
just like my first
and I couldn't have you any other way
now that I've lost my mind
now that I don't know what I am anymore

Wednesday 30 July 2014

Title: Eyes off

You offer light
but it's so dark inside my mind, in many ways
when I'm alone with you I feel so alive
when you leave my side I ache, for you to come on home to me
but I can't make you mine

I've said it before
and I'll say it all over again
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't believe how lucky I am
I can't take my eyes off you
I soak in the light you give
and you give me light every single day

you fix me, you started slowly and then all at once
I'm addicted to feeling alive
dear god I hope this lasts
I want to make you feel whole again
I want to make you feel love again
you're my recovery
a different kind of serotonin

but I always knew, I always knew I'd love you
I can feel it coming so clearly
I can feel you already there
you're running around my head
and I can't keep up
you're running around my head

you fix me, you started slowly and then all at once
I'm addicted to feeling alive
dear god I hope this lasts
I want to make you feel whole again
I want to make you feel love again
you're my recovery
a different kind of serotonin


just a feeling
just a feeling
I won't give up on you
I promise I always knew
I always knew
it was you

Title: A.Joice

You waited so patiently
if you want me still
I could be your home by now
our feelings develop slow
and when you think you're home, safe and warm, at ease
I hope I'm worth the wait
you deserve the best kind of love, the kind that touches your soul
love that takes your breath away
I think I could give you that much

whenever you need me, I'll remain
and I'll be out of sight when you no longer do
I come alive whenever you're near
the way you make me feel like I never was alone
I'll give you love
I'd do anything

anywhere you are
let me comfort you
your eyes they keep me away from darkness and days of abuse
I'll be your night light, overdue
you'll be my night guide, comforting
I'll take you away
so please don't stay alone tonight

when the days feel long
darling, I'd take that dark walk home
I'd bring you back to me
I'd bring you back to me
I never thought I'd love again
but with you I do so easily
so please don't be alone tonight

anywhere you are
let me comfort you
your eyes they keep me away from darkness and days of abuse
I'll be your night light, overdue
you'll be my night guide, comforting
I'll take you away
so please don't stay alone tonight

whenever you want me
wherever you need me
however you love me
I'll be your company
I'll be whatever you need me to be
I'd do anything to take the doubts away
I bathe in the light you create

hold me, I'll hold you tighter
the way you feel alone
the way you hold it all inside
building up insecurity
I'll wait until you're ready
until you feel enough
you're my fuzzy feeling
you're more than enough


Title: Come

Come to me,
I'll show you where we can be safe
where no one will find us
where we can finally be alone
come to me, come back to me

you're breaking my heart, each time
it's hard to get used to happiness, I know
but I have faith, a little faith in you and I
so come to me, come closer
let yourself come

I keep on, wearing myself out
improving past lessons
letting my guard down
I'll put you first, my love
I'll always love you
even though you may lose patience for me

of course I trust you
there's not reason why I shouldn't
please know that I love you
with all I have in my aching soul and bones

you're breaking my heart, each time
it's hard to get used to happiness, I know
but I have faith, a little faith in you and I
so come to me, come closer
let yourself come


you're breaking my heart
each time I let you in
each time we get closer
but please come closer to me
let yourself come

Title: As long as we're together

I'd like to make plans with you
easier said than done, I'm aware
what if I said I've let go?
what if I said I care for you?

you grind yourself down, with insecurity
and I would do anything for you
anything to make you feel better

a little worry, a little strain
I'd lose it all, for you to call my name
and as long as we're together
I will continue to admire you
I will continue to be patient
and I'd lose it all
as long as we're together

I try not to protect myself
paranoid by the past
I hope that the scars will fade
if I could I would go back
I would choose you

a little worry, a little strain
I'd lose it all, for you to call my name
and as long as we're together
I will continue to admire you
I will continue to be patient
and I'd lose it all
as long as we're together

I care, I will always care
I love, I will always love
too much, too often, too foolishly
and I'll fall, deeper into you
as long as we're together


Title: Love Lost

I'm letting go, I'd rather be myself than nothing
I'm always getting misunderstood
and there's nothing better than disappointment
letting go of pain, betrayal and misery
you drained me like a tumour, my first love

I wish I understood you,
I wish I understood what exactly it was I needed to do
to make you mine, actually mine

I pretended I was enough
I always called your bluff
I felt nothing from your touch
unreadable, your expressions giving mixed signals

used to the cold shoulder,
I bury myself in the passionate sex
I never knew any different
there never would have been a good time to lose you
everyday was a silent battle
I loved you, I hope you know that

I wish I understood you,
I wish I understood what exactly it was I needed to do
to make you mine, actually mine

It's so beautiful, letting go
first love, isn't everything
you were a lesson learnt
a year I got lost in
a year I will never forget

Title: Seperate

I could sense the doubts within your voice
as your hesitant tongue played with your words
and as you held me close, for the last time
I knew that this would never last
I knew that we were always undone

I never thought that I would have to miss you
I never thought you'd give me up, let me go
but we're apart now
another lesson learned
I hope you find what you're looking for
everything I could have been
everything I was and more

you promised me a life, a future
that was everything to me
but still, you break me once more
you betrayed me once again


I waited for you to change,
I was told you can't change people
I was patient, gave you chances that no one else would give
but you never made it right, you never made up for it
but yet I always hoped we'd be safe

yet, still, I'm waiting
yet, still, I'm waiting
on you again, you again

you promised me a life, a future
that was everything to me
but still, you break me once more
you betrayed me once again

stranger things are coming my way,
apart, alone, but I live in better days
less suffocated, less controlling, a better way to remain
I never thought you'd leave me
I never though I'd have to miss you
and one day I hope you see all I gave to you
and one day I hope you call

Title: Swept

I can feel the hurdles in your voice
as you drag me gently towards your everlasting love
I can feel each trigger in me, and right now it might not be much
but you're my fuzzy feeling

I still get nervous, each time we meet
I embrace all feelings that I never knew existed
and yet we're so comfortable
we're so intertwined

I'll hold you with open arms
I'll kiss you with tender lips
make you feel warm and loved
I'll make you feel something you never did

I sway in the tide you give,
your aura dragging me from shore to shore
and I'm drifting in bliss
you glow so bright whenever I'm near
and I glow so bright when I think of you

I'll hold you with open arms
I'll kiss you with tender lips
make you feel warm and loved
I'll make you feel something you never did


and are you coming back soon?
please don't say you're sleeping alone tonight
I lay awake with the gentle truth, bare on my skin
it's always been you, darling
it's never to late to begin


Title: Betrayed

I breathe you in, you spit me out
I touch your skin, rough with betrayal
you stroke my hand, I feel numb
is this really all we've become?
just two bodies, nothing more to hold

I gave you my all
you gave me nothing but doubts
you made me something to you
but it was never enough
I wish I knew why you broke me so, why you hurt me so

I expected more than this
all we have is elusive
I wanted all of this, at the beginning you promised more than this
yet all I gained from you was disappointment

I have learnt to be less loyal, less kind
my mending scars bind doubt and fear together
you have taught me all that first love should never teach
but here I am, moving on and letting go of the tears beneath my burdened sheets

and sweetheart, what exactly did I do
I deserved your love, your time, your affection
and all I got for closure was nothing more than the love you gave to me


this heartbreak of mine
I would have never have been enough
I gave you everything I had
and what future did I imagine with you?
there was no such thing