Title: Love Lost

I'm letting go, I'd rather be myself than nothing
I'm always getting misunderstood
and there's nothing better than disappointment
letting go of pain, betrayal and misery
you drained me like a tumour, my first love

I wish I understood you,
I wish I understood what exactly it was I needed to do
to make you mine, actually mine

I pretended I was enough
I always called your bluff
I felt nothing from your touch
unreadable, your expressions giving mixed signals

used to the cold shoulder,
I bury myself in the passionate sex
I never knew any different
there never would have been a good time to lose you
everyday was a silent battle
I loved you, I hope you know that

I wish I understood you,
I wish I understood what exactly it was I needed to do
to make you mine, actually mine

It's so beautiful, letting go
first love, isn't everything
you were a lesson learnt
a year I got lost in
a year I will never forget