Title: what I lose you gain

I try for you, I fail for me
constantly considering the consequences of my actions
your shadow a figure I'm resistant to see
and you're in my peripheral vision
you're struggling to find the words you'd like to say
and you'll just stay still, hiding, hiding away

I'd take my life
to be human, to be beautiful, to be appreciated
and I'd give it all
for another moment with you

I'm leaking at the seams
fractured bones as a result of a touch from your body
the collision of you and me
the roughness of your tender touch
the underrated need to believe

Chorus: I'm scared of what I'll look like in the end
and I would take it all
just to be, just to be
I'll try to be a better me
to make this sorry sight a better night to see
what's it like to be alive?
this toxic air is all I breathe

I'm trying not to lose my faith in you
because faith is all I have now
and I try for you, I fail for me

chorus

ending: I'd take my life
to be human, to be beautiful, to be seen